well.
i got the urge to blog.
so, here i am.

Literature paper 1 was SO UNEXPECTED!
however,
i didnt regret.
i had done my best already.

GOD is so great!
HE answered my prayers ok!
HE is the BEST of all.
i felt ssooo loved.
how i wish that im now 21,
so that i can be a Christian openly!?
i wan to go to church like wat others do!
HEHE.

let me share something.
well,
i was darm stressed up in the morning while i was doing my final revision for Lit.
i got more and more anxious as the time ticked by.
gradually my migraine problem acts up.
para-migraine perhaps.
my head felt heavy,
couldnt breathe properly.

[ Mrs kaan,
although i know you won't view my blog, but i really want to thank you for being there for me. x)) you will message me without fail, to encourge me and cheer me up. i really appreciate alot. thank you so much. =)). take care of your health too. and dun worry about us, i am sure all of us will do well.
x))) ]

i went to school about 2hours plus earlier.
met up with jess they all,
chat and study at the same time with them.
it was relaxing though.

my mind went blank totally when i sat down on my seat.
my heart was throbbing fast.
Ms Elaine Lim was really nice.
she said a prayer for us.
=)))
this ease my heart alittle, but not as much.
i murmured a personal prayer to GOD,
a different prayer.
=)))
i didnt prayed for an easy paper,
instead;
i prayed for wisdom.
i prayed to GOD to help me to remember wad i had studied.
i prayed for GOD to be with me.
i prayed to GOD to calm my nerves.
AMEN!

i started the paper,
panicking.
i looked at the questions,
was stunned.
i couldnt start.
i didnt noe how to start.

i took 1o mins to steady myself.
i keep telling myself " it's just a practise."
and starting to repeat this phrase like a mantra.

suddenly,
i felt peace mounting in me.
letters began to appear on my paper.
the more i write,
the more relax i felt.
i was elated.
coz HE's with me.
i felt LOVED.
x))))


well.
its best to pray before starting the paper.
it works!
trust me.
=)))