hmmm....4get to add sumthing....hahaz....hahaz....yesterday band....kelly tang came....hahaz....he looks nice in person....yaya....he's a person that is not a short-tempered person....yesterdae as we r playing....he's face kind of black...but he didn't sae that we dun play well....frm his look i can tell tat his worried...hmmm.....haiz.....=(
Wednesday.....30 June 2004....Time,4:35pm.....

haiz.....im feeling abit sick....headache n my eyes vry the pain...as if got sumthing piercing in....cant reali open that much.....hahaz....sch reopen le....ok lorz...change seats....den change group also....haiz...sianz....hmm...last sunday i slept at 4.37am like that...den woke up haf an hour later by my father...den wen back to slp...den going to 6 like tat receive a msg by wan of my senior....haiz...go n slp 4 another haf an hour den go sch....haiz...mi monday nite also the same thing...slept at 4am like tat...woke up vry the sianz...den feeling cold all over....in class tat time...suddenly got fever....mi try ya bear wif it lorz.....mi not in the good mood that day....haiz
hahaz....yesterday the moment i reach home frm band...went to bath eat my dinner...den sat on my sofa....relax abit....coz mi vry the stress....hmm...watching tv....till the show ends....den duno why...too tired le....haven been slping so well 4 2 nites....i slp.....till this morning at 6am!!!....mad rite...den is like i haven finish my work....ahmmm....actually dun have lorz...aiya.....my mum also ask mi to go n slp....coz she sae mi mad....dun go slp....later in sch mi wana peng....yaya....haiz
sianz.....tml got band....dun feel ya going.....den mi feeling abit sick......also....dun feel like going sch.....haiz....wat m i going to do...reali feeling vry uncomfortable....reali....
Wednesday.....30 June 2004.....Time,4:03pm......

hahz.....today...mircale....mr ng never say sumthing!!! hahaz... funi rite...ahahz....so hapi...but hor today he got shout at mi...so sad rite... but hor today vry the bu shuang....yaya...sianz....holidays r ending so soon...as if hor no hoildays like tat lorz....haiz....sianz....
ahahz...people sae i dun look like singaporean....hahaz...so funi rite...siao la...hahaz...
Saturday....26 June 2004...Time, 5:57pm....

haiz...tml goin wana go band or not...coz....mi now still racking my brains hard on how to decorate my masterpiece!!! hahaz... hav to send 4 competition....so have ya do it well!!!...hmmm.... haiz....now scearching 4 pictures in the net....vry sianz...haiz... how to decorate??? sianz....
Friday....25 June 2004...Time, 6:19pm....

im lost....lost....confuse....i duno wat im saying....but...im reali lost...lost...i will sae....but...it's the matter whe u ppl out dere can understand or not...here goes....
i like 2 eat apple...they brings happiness to me...joy...wif every taste but....juz last nite...i find out tat apple seems tasteless to mi...bland....but i find out that oranges r great too...slowly...i accepted taking orange...but in my heart...i still cannot 4get the taste of the apple....
in the past....the taste of oranges give mi sorrows...pain...sadness...but now....it seems normal...normal....i wana 4get...but oranges....looking at the appearance....it seems ugly....but it taste swt on the inside....apple....they are much more swter...both the inside n the outside....now...im lost...apples n oranges....wat im i gona do???.....
wen im sad...the taste of apple cheers mi up....but...y....i take orange instead??? why...apple is wat i wanted...but why i take orange instead???....
im reali confused n reali lost...blog....wat im i gona do....things r popping up so recently n so suddenly...im not prepared at all....not prepared...y cant u wait till wen im prepared???
Wednesday, 23 June 2004...Time, 7:43pm....
 

haiz....2dae got band.....sianz....tat 2pit mr ng...idiot him la...same age as my mum...so 2pit rite....i thought he older....wa lau...haiz...he vry de wat lorz...sae him till mi dun feel like saying here...erm....wat mi toking huh? i duno lei...hahz...i bet u ppl duno also....hahz....haiz....
tml also got band....so sianz xia....hahz....=p....nw toking wif one of my senior in band...hahz....complaining n complaining abot sumthing...hahaz.....hmmm....i think end here....sianz...mi wana go bath le...u c...cum home straight away hav ya go prepare dinner le....4 my bro....haiz....sad case rite....den cum internet write blog.....haiz....bb....
Monday.....21 June 2004...Time,7:19pm.........

hmmm....haiz...so sianz....nth to do so early...haiz...later go n study le....haiz...yesterday in band...kind of fun n 2pit....haiz.....dun tok abot it le...sae laoz rite....feel like killing myself....wadeva...
haiz....i think mi quite long ever cum online le n write blog...no time....no time...gtg le....cya next time....if i got the time to get here....
Sunday....20 June 2004.....Time, 8:54am.....

haiz...yesterdae....band....that 2pit nr ng...walau...he hor...i reali wan him to go n die lorz...he sux la....ask him to go n die la...wat fan dian....ask him 2 do it la...siao...idiot....walau....he reali sux la....idiot...
last nite...haiz...quarrll wif my bro...till vry the bad....later after tat at 9pm like tat i recall it n i cried....vry the sad lorlx....den i cried the whole nite wen i go to bed....vry sad...vry sad....how can i shout at my bro...i keep thinking n thinking about it...i duno lorz....i feel vry bad....reali...vry bad...i reali duno wat to sae....tears juz keep falling...i duno why i cry untill like tat...i reali duno y...i feel so bad....reali...='(
Wednesday, 16 June 2004...Time, 11:10am.....

haiz....so sick 2dae...vomited 2 times as soon as i wake up this morning....sianz....vry de xin ku....haiz....not going band lorz... now mi resting....kind of serious lorz....the doctor sae...so maybe tml also not going.....so good luck to my 2 seniors!!! +o(.....

hmm....yesterdae go out wif my cousin n xiu pei...as u reali noe le la....fun lorz....hmm....yaya....nth better 2 sae...
haiz...juz now practice my horn...haiz...hmm....sick....i mean mi reali sick lorz....after so much...wadeva....haiz....
got sec1s in band sms n sum call mi n tell mi they wana quit band...haiz...duno how to confront dem...but reali im confronting them le...n im trying my best to let dem think on the brighter side...haiz....
tml got band...duno whe i can go or not...sick lorz....=(...

haiz...today i got back my results....haiz...my mum not happy about it lorz....haiz...61.6% lorz....she sae y last time in CA1 i can get 72.4% like tat...den now i get this kind of results....u c now comparing my results wif my sec1 result...actually got improve lorz...=p...quite alot...last time in sec1 vry de slack lorz...dis year better le...n im glad!!!....hehez...my mum sae my art frm the 90s drop to the 70s....haiz...vry hard le ma...reali lorz...haiz...wadeva lorz....i will buck at n i WILL!!!
haiz...last nite i slp on my sofa...coz both my brother n my parents on the air-con until so cold!!!...wan mi 2 die iszit...yesterdae mi vry the sick lorz...got a vry serious flu--> tats wat mu mum sae....yaya....den cant reali breathe so well in the air-con room lorz...so i go slp on the sofa..hahz..but duno y hor...this morning wen i wake up rite...i find myself slping on the BED!!!!!!!!...oh man!!....wat happen huh???i duno y le...i dun sleep walk 1 hor...duno la...maybe my father call mi up i in a daze lorz....den maybe he help mi to the bed lorz...duno la wadeva....haiz....yesterdae eat medicine vry the tired....so slp early...11plus pm....yaya...
later going out wif my cousin n her fren...xiu pei ba.....duno la....she sae she vry easy to get along wif one..hahaz...hmm...i got a testi frm my junior..hahaz...hui ting lorz...i go approve 1st.....hmm...okok le...lets get back to the topic...oh...hmm...i dun reali go out 4 nth 1...everytimne got reason de...hmm...this time round is because i got to buy present 4 my senior...yaya...hahaz...last mondae...i went bugis to buy a present too...also 4 my senior lorz...wif my fren....den on the way going back tat time...saw JOAN!!!! n SHARON....n one of their frens....so surprising rite...mi cant believe my eyes....hahaz...they indeed change quite alot...hm...reali lorz...yaya....=p
Saturday.....12 June 2004...Time, 9:41am....

haiz...sumtimes...looking at my blog will send my tears falling...i also duno why...haiz...duno la...

haiz...my mood better le...but still de same...now in msn...toking to huiting...teo 1...one of the sec1s...hahaz...she sae tok 2 mi make her feel better abt band...hahz...funi xia....hahaz...she tell mi tat she dun like people's skirt to be short...she sae have to be knee length...hahaz...she's cute...sae mi nice..hahaz... she horz...hahaz...haiz...now she asking mi about the band uniform....she reali vry interested xia...wow!!!!...she wan 2 play horn xia!!!.....
yesterday...went 2 my mum's fren hse...10 plus go....hmm...wif my mum...bro...3 cousins....yaya...den we went praying...den go to hy mum's fren's hse...at tampines...no mood at all....every reali go n play lorz...juz play pingpong wif my student....haiz...reali surprised he will go dere...
wen home quite late last nite....reach home at about 12plus am....sianz....vry tired...haiz....

2dae...is the worst day of my life...is the worst...vry worst...i duno wat to sae...i juz feel like crying...why is these always happening to mi...onli...why...i juz wan a piece of a mind...why u cant giv mi tat...it's such a simple request frm mi....why cant u juz grant it...

haiz...mi reali go crazy le...haiz...dis few days reali vry de sianz....got headache quite often...haiz...stress ba...duno la...haiz...band reali sux 2dae...sianz...aiyo...c the mr ng face rite...mi hor will 'wu yuan wu gu' got some 2pit words...went up my mind...i dun wish to sae....haiz...now toking to my band senior...JUDITH!!!...hahaz...put he name here...i think if she sees it rite....she will kill mi xia...
haiz...see my fren change new blogskin...so nice...so envy...but i think...mine's the best xia...haahhaahahahahaz....wadeva..hahaz...clap clap...so sianz...waaaaaa!!!!all of a sudden so many ppl cum online!!! waaaaa!!!! y huh...hahaz...i left judith alone...hmm....i go check wat she says 1st...hmm....oh she got to go...chee!!! i thought wat...haiz...sianz...so boring..haiz...nvm...i think it's time 4 mi to go 2....sianz....buaiz...
Tuesday, 8 June 2004....Time, 7:55pm

I hate 2dae......i juz hate 2dae...so suz.....so bad...i hope i will juz 4get u....i hate ur words...ALOT!!!!!.....

hehe....2dae i went out wif my fren who i never c her 4 the whole entire 5 years!!!....

I HATE MY PC I HATE MY PC.....vry the slack le lei....i hate it lorz...keep going offline all of a sudden one....got virses.....it's the one tat...will mess up the details of a program...starting wif this--->C:\spad\start.html
tat is the thingy tat irriated my whole program....haiz...i gona check it out xia....hmm.....my cousin aso got virses...hers is..the com will be shuting down in 1 mins time....haiz...it least mine is better....haiz...I HATE COM VIRSES!!!!!!

hihiz....hahaz...these few days not in the mood to cum online...so...less entries la...hahaz...hmm....now den i noe that got 2 person hor...always look at my blog 1....hahaz...
hmmm....last monday...got band...got a new piece of music...quite a nice piece...by kelly tang...the next octave....wadeva...
i brought back my horn on that dae...coz...i wan to try out how to play the new piece...n learn lorz...hahaz...i play till my lips crack a little n vry the red lorz....hahaz...after 2 hours of playing rite...my lips still red...siao rite...duno la...but i woke up the next morning ok le...
Haiz...yesterday got PW Presentation...so 2pit...the very last minute the floppy disk spoilt....den my group have to present it without the powerpoint slide!!!...haiz...
Later go band at 1pm...after the presentation...yar...later take 2 more hyms....wadeva...then play....haiz...hmm...i wonder the mr ng hor is a werido or wat lor....siao 1 de...his moods swings lorz....sumtimes vry the fierce den suddenly can laugh 1....siao rite....duno la....wateva...
now vry de sian at home...last nite i slept at 2.55am like tat..n woke by by my cousin at 8.20am...haiz...sian...