Haiz…its been a long time since I wrote an entry here…hmm…last tuesday...got NE Learning journey...the Battlefield trip...hmm...kind of fun...nice n interesting trip...reali enjoy alot...
haiz...reali miss my blog a lot…yesterday…I got Methodist Walk at ACJC….xia…I woke up at 4.15am…hahaz… den at 5.30…I went to meet up wif my frens n we took the 1st train to buona vista…. Haiz…reach dere abot 6.16am like tat…n we r wondering y we reach dere so early…
We walk to ACJC….hmm….saw a lot of pupils from different Methodist schools…we settled down….waiting 4 the VIP to start….he gave a speech…a story…lead a song… HEY!....dere’s a band too….they played a song that the VIP had lead….vry wonderful playing xia…..duno y horns hor…reali fated to have onli a few people playing that instrument lorz….the sch onli got 2 horns onli lorz…their band got string instruments like cello….yup…quite a lot of pupils playing tubas…
Finally the walk start…vry hot n stuffy….we walk round buona vista….if im not wrong…I guess….3.8km…kind of tiring la…but we enjoy a lot…=p…it ended at 9plus….its vry early la…den I went out wif my frens…
Hahaz…today rite…I went out wif my mum n my little cousin…to bugis…hahaz.. we took neoprints…n a card wif my mum onli…hahaz…so hapi xia….my mum was smiling non-stop 2dae….hahaz…duno her la…den we went carrfour….she drag mi dere…bought quite a lot of things….den we headed straight home….
Haiz…tml still got band….2.30pm-5.30pm…..so sianz…dun feel ya going…during this june holidays rite…4 the band practice rite….the practice was so long xia….example got practice from…8.30am-11am den from 11.30pm-4.30pm….u c so long…haiz…sianz lorz…but have to bear wif it no matter wat…haiz…last Friday’s practice is so bad…n my mood is not reali so good on that day…coz sum1 makes mi wana bash her up on that day….wadeva…that piggy was saying that last year batch of sec1s is progressing vry slow…..den say a lot of craps….wadeva…that’s his mouth…he wan 2 say…say lorz…I dun care…I dun wan to care about him….i juz try my vry best over dere n if he starts yelling…I will let him be…n of course I will change one la…I will not sit dere like an idiot n let him scold 1 rite…I will not stress myself up on wat he say…he juz wana threaten us to play well…but he is reali vry de wat lorz…if he wan to attract people to join band rite…1st…he has to change his 2pit temper of his rite…his temper already scared 75% of the people le…n I heard from the sec1s this year that they wan to quit band also….coz they think it’s vry stressful n mr ng vry the fierce lorz….haiz…reala duno how the band is gona survive next time…
Friday's band kind of fun la...counting the bars tat time vry the funi...mr ng speed up the speed of a piece..my waimin vry the funi lorz...as she counts a beat...she moves her hand...vry de fast xia...den got a few follows her..hahaz...sent the whole band laughing xia...hahaz....haiz...reali hope that tml band will not be so bad lorz...

Hmm…my examz results….haiz…all my efforts went down the drain …I have been staying up late juz to study n I have been racking my brains so hard…but u see…this is wat I get…im totally useless…totally useless…haiz…I reali have to buck up…reali…I gona study during this break n not to stress myself to much…I will not pay so much attention on band n study….
Im onli hapi 4 my Chinese compo coz I got 38/40…..onli 2 marks gone…this is wat im hapi 4 onli…others…. Like shit lorz….i dun wish to sae le….im totally sick of it….i juz pray that frm the next semester onwards….i will score well n let the past be past.....
Haiz…yesterday…I went out wif 2 of my frens….i went to buy a bag, wallet, pencil case….the wallet…$12.80….pencil case….$12….the converse bag…$36.90….we took a lot of neoprints n we enjoy ourselves a lot yesterday….but wat happen today…I guess I juz have to let it go…n to pull up my socks….time is not up yet..perheps…
4 band…I reali duno wat to sae…I may have to quit it or may have to….all depends on my mum….on my results….n c wat my mum have to sae…if she sae no…I may juz have to sae good bye to band….:’(..
i reali hope tat everything will be fine...
Hmm…..i will be busy 4 the next few days preparing some materials for a Chinese newspaper cutting competition n I will not be online so often le…so….bye for now…n I hope that everything will soon be over….over….
P.S…If onli I got a chance to go back in time….n onli if I can….
24 May 2004, Monday....Time...7:53pm

haiz...this morning i woke up my fever gone down...but i still go band...haiz...but i really regret...going band...n next time i will tell myself...i will NOT go band when im sick...it's vry terriblr lorz...cant breathe well...keep on shiver...but 2dae...im quite ok lorz...people must be thinking i hav eaten the wrong medicine coz mi n keep on laughing n laughing...haiz...
i keep on playing the wrong notes todae...i think because im sick la...den play the solo play till no energy like tat... the sound vry weak...n the whole band was like laughing n laughing non-stop...haiz wadeva...
we got a new piece 2dae....haiz...quite ok la...it's being played by the primary school bands...is easy la...so-so... haiz...duno wat to sae here...dun even hav the energy to recall...but really like ya dying now...vry 'xin ku'... next time dun go band le...wen im sick la...n i will not pec myself to go...rather stay at home...nth 2 do den to go band...vry de terrible...like hell like that...have to c that pig's face...c the face wan to vomit...hahaz..an idea juz flash through my mind...hahaz...wen im sick rite...wen i feel like vomiting rite..i will go up to him n vomit in front of him xia...hahaz..jk...jk..i will not do that one la...ke lian ta onli....
haiz...i feel ya going out tml n relax...after so much of 'sufferings' for the past few days...haiz...i last time cannot take stress one...but duno y this year stress myself too much...y? i duno...mayb i wana reach till wat my mum expect mi to get...or maybe...i wana get good results...or mayb...wadeva...haiz...

…im having a fever now…n it’s quite high lorz…about 38 degree… haiz…I duno how to go band tml…2dae in band, while playing my horn tat time…I kept on shivering n yawning n hahaz….my fren(sec3)….was laughing n she kept on follow wat I do lorz…haiz…I keep playing the wrong notes 2dae n it’s very difficult 4 mi 2 buzz my instrument….
Haiz…!!!....wa lau!!!(oops…sori)…fancy calling mi ‘Joan! Joan! Joan!’!!!!...idoit band mayor…u see…BAND MAJOR le….still so….wadeva…idiot idiot idiot…(oops…sum1 will be after mi…=p)…..wadeva…
Haiz…I noe the reason why I got fever le….2da wen I woke up in the morning rite….i got sore eye…on my right eye….vry itchy…n red…den I cant reali c so well even now…kind of blur…den for the past few days rite…I keep on slping late lorz…on Wednesday nite…I slp at 2-3am….n last nite…I slp at 4 plus am….u c, im mad n yesterday, I never even take any afternoon nap…n I still can keep myself awake for so long….mircale xia…1st time in my whole bloody life….this is my new record….the latest I slp last time is 3.30am…now…4plus am xia…haha…den just now during band tata time…I wan2 slp like tat…but now, dun reali wana slp….
Actually last nite, at 2plus am like tat, mi already vry tired n wan2 slp le….but one of my fren call mi n wake mi up xia!!! Ya….den we chatted till she tells mi tat she’s slping….but just now I heard frm her tat she slp as late as mi…I dun reali wan2 slp last nite n to keep myself awake 4 the rest of the nitez…but my brother woke up n ask mi 2 off the lights as he cant slp so well….juz because he the next dae he got Amaths test den I decided 2 go n slp lorz….haiz….
Hmm….2dae is my final paper…art…..i cant finish my art but im hapi 4 wat I have drawn….vry contented le la….ok lorz…but my mum is kind of sad n angry….haiz…I feel so bad…..
Now, my exams over le n im kind of relax….this morning after my art paper, I went out wif 3 of my frens…..2 bugis….haiz…old place…..hahaz…=p….

it's so late already...im still online..wana noe y?...coz i got to find pictures again for my art exam...i wana change the topic ma...from "Rice" to "Joyous Occasion"...coz i think "Joyous Occasion" is much much much more easier n interesting lorz...hmm...im now searching for the pictures in barry's clip art...her..thats a good wedsite...u can search for alot of cartoon pictures that are easier to draw n they are cute too!!!...
haiz...i gona pia for my art le...now 12am le...gona go...cant write any longer le...time is vry precious to mi now...every single seconds count...buaiz...nitez....

hmm...yeah!!!...finally all those important subjects finish le....yeah!!!....so hapi but haiz...so sad....have 2 go band this friday...juz now wen i practice my horn that time...the sound not reali that nice lorz...so sad...so sad...haiz...but i noe how to play the "wipe out"...yeah!!..finally all those hard work...i finally succeed!!!...yEah!! so hapi...
haiz....yesterday went library wif my frens to study...hmm...got alot of fun...but my frens keep saying that mi everytime de face vry the "black" one...den say mi always try to act happy den later go back to the sullen face again...haiz...n one of my fren is saying in her blog that mi dun have hapi days 1...coz my face is always black...haiz...tats true la...tired ma...den like tat lorz...but u ppl can make mi laugh vry easily one...coz mi see ur face...i will laugh no matter wat...

hmm...im back here again...all my family members slp le...left mi alone...haiz...still studying...coz i dun wana fail my DNT lorz...im juz afraid that tml the paper will be difficult lorz...haiz sianz...
My poor fren is eating now...she's hungry ba...she never eat her lunch worlx n during dinner time she ate a little onli...aiyo... so ke lian rite...haiz..she ask mi 2 give her 10 mins....coz she now eating...so i write new entry 2 my blog lorz...
Haiz...stress...sianz...this friday band dun reali feel like going at all lorz...plz lor tat day got art paper lor...ask we all 2 go 4 wat...start at 2.30pm lorz....i dun feel like going... i dun even wana c that pig's idoitic face lor...so idiotic...n ppl say im his pet...(i noe i mention this b4 but im reali vry angry now!!!)....shunks.....wadeva...so sick...haiz...
This saturday, got band...im going of course la...got drill...it's been a long time since we had our drill le...but hor...later gona c the pig's face...den if u play badly rite... he will start to throw words at u lorlz without controlling his temper...idiot...he makes us hate band lorz...n last year actually got 30 plus sec1s wan 2 join band 1 le...they sae c his face alreadi n attuide, they decided 2 quit instead...den onli at the end got 15 plus of us...is counted as good le...this year haiz...duno where dey get the rumours frm...abot ur ** **, got less people wana join...haiz...duno how the band gona survive...haiz...
Dun tok about it le...it will onli makes mi regretful 4 joining band...but can sae not reali vry bad la...still can noe some 'interesting' people in band...haiz...wadeva...
Hmm....i wonder how's my fren doing...so long le...she sae drinking soup but y so long?? my entry is already vry long le...i have run out of things to sae...hmm....let mi think... haiz haiz haiz.....sian sian sian....thats wat i wana sae...stress stress stress.....hey my fren is calling mi!!!..hahaz, shunks! i 4got wat i wana tell her le.....oh my god...i think i should stop here 4 2dae...it's kind of 2 long le...rite...i think this is my longest entry of all....wadeva....hm.....bye.....cya!!!!...nitez....swt dreams every1....(",)....

hmm....i think i should 4give...i think i will stick 2 wat im feeling...im rather hapi 2dae....coz all the important sudjects are over...2dae's science is rather difficult...but i manage 2 answer them...some of them i mermorize by heart le but wen im doing the paper i tends 2 4get some...
Now...i think....learn 2 4give is a much better way 2 do...n im sori 2 tat person who im piss off wif recently...i think because these few days im vry de piss off wif my examz n not slping well...so my temper tends 2 be bad abit....haiz...next time i should control my temper...haiz....
Tml i will be having DNT exam...n....I DUNO WAT 2 STUDY 4 IT LORZ!!!!.....my DNT teacher never say...haiz...so bad...haiz really duno wat ya study...hahaz...i remember last year end of the year exam i study the whole text book xia...i noe im crazy hahaz....den study the home econs till...guess...4am xia...coz 2 excited le la n cant slp ma...hahz i mad....hahahahz...hm...now listerning 2 my favorite song..."our first dance"...hahaz..is a nice jazz music...(",)...
:@...AHHHHH!!!!....haiz...juz now...i went to c the band notice board...haiz so idiotic lorx...got band le...2.30pm....after my art exam lorz...so idiotic...hate it la...sianz...sianz...sianz...dun feel like looking at the idiot pig!!!....sian sian...still got some people say that im his pet lorz....so idiot!!...haiz...dun feel like going band this friday...got exam be4 that le...still ask us 2 go...haiz....such a bad dae!!!....:@...
Monday,17 May 2004.......Time, 12:12am......

i hav been thinking alot....about yesterday...i really duno wat 2 do...really...2 4give or not 2 4give....will any1 tell mi de answer???...wat am i gona do???....y i get so piss off nowadays???...y?...some things r really uncontrollable....unbearable....n some reali makes mi wana cry... but y?... some things that i reali have 2 let it go( im not toking about love affairs plz!!!)....but is vry difficult... wat am i gona do???...the situation now is vry unbearable n it had been bugging mi 4 long....i try not to take it so seriously but but i duno y i cant...
i reali duno how to take my science exam tml...im juz not in de mood...i hope to clear all this doubts lord!...i think is late le...i think i better go n slp...im waking up early later at 5.30am....2 revise some things....n i hope that my heart will not be bugging by all those problems i have...nitez......cya...
P.S...to some1, hey ********, sori 2 leave you behind 2nite later on...coz i gona slp...i noe u will read my blog later on.....better slp early 4 tml's paper hor...may the lord bless you 2 get gd results....=p...
Monday,17 May 2004........Time: 12.14am.......

exam stress are bugging mi 4 de past few days...it's so terrible...i duno how ya overcome it...it's juz difficult...i really duno wat ya do.....alot of things have been happen 2 mi...i reali cant stand it...sumtimes...i reali hope to find a hole....2 drop all my worries....sorrows....pains in...but i juz cant find de hole...oh lord! where's de hole lord....:'(...i keep thinking...y cant i be brave?....2 defeat all these problems...why cant i do it??? why???...i thought after all these problems...i have learn how 2 be strong....but no...i fear them...i wana 4get them..but they keep on bugging mi...they wun let mi go...sumtimes...in sum conditions...learning 2 4give is not the best thing 2 do....i have been 4giving 2 much...n it's reali 2 much le...now....it shatters my heart...vry badly...now...forgiviness is not a good thing to mi....it makes it sounds like devil...i juz have to wait 4 the clouds to cum...n rain on them...
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how i wish the world will change...how i wish de world will not have any sorrows...juz laughters, will make the world go round...no worries....no pain...i wish tat my life will be juz a dream...a vry long dream...tat no1 could control...but...everything is impossible...wishes r not meant to be true...dey r jus part of ur imagination....impossible...i wana climb 2 the highest submit...n throw down all my sorrows...close my eyes...n feel the surrounding air...breathe in the new life...n let go the past...wen i open my eyes...i wana c the real life...de reality...n de life i wana be in...de hapi mi...not de old self... but i noe wat i wish 4 will not come true....all this is impossible...is impossible...impossible......
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harlow.....( Saturday,15 May 2004, 12:09am)....(",)....

hihiz...u c, so late le i still online....haiz...this is my new blog...new 1...(",)...
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