hmm.
now im at shiyin's place.
helping her to do her competition stuffs lor.
now going online to help her find pictures to draw lor.
hmm.


nvr go sch today.
so sick.
haish.
stress stress lor.
got so much things to do.
sian.
got a bad encounter today wen i go n see doc.
haish.
sickco guy.



ok.
gtg n draw le.
bueeei.

my head was real spinning like nobody's business.
maths was like.
so darm difficult.
mrs chang was on MC.
n nw came another cher.
hu duno how to teach de lor.
like bullet train!
wen my class starting complaining about her sort of teachings,
she started to get so impatience.
duno wads wrg wif her.
even wen we duno, want to ask her.
she get so darm fuss.
siao lor.
really duno wad de hell she's toking.
summore gives us tons n tons of hw to do.
hey, she only tok for 15mins on that exe n ask we all to do.
this is real toopid.
her tokings were so darm soft too.
toking to her husband!!!!???
Mrs Lee was wad she's called.
i wonder how we are going to survive without Mrs Chang.
Plz come back soon!!!
arghx.
for now,
i will juz look at the textbk de examples.
hack her.
bleach.
or i ask my dearriee gor.
life is not as bad as wad i think.



man. my head juz cant stop spinning.
its so terribly pain.
arghx.
im really getting sick.
waaaaaaaaaaaaa!



haish.
neway.
my family fren was sort of kana robbed in bangkok.
her bag was cut away frm de strip.
so its like.
everything was gone.
im not sure about the passport.
hmm.
haish.
lucky she nvr get hurt.
or else i will cry man.
think she got a fright manx.
she bought snacks for us.
those pork floss sticks.
lurbee it!
yay!





but im sick now.
*sniff*

did i wrote abou ytd?
hmm.
guess not bahx.
i noe that i was real busy.

ytd.
i woke up at 9 plus.
but i was darm tired.
yet have to struggle myself to wake up.
coz need to help my cuzzin,shiyin wif her competition stuffs lor.
haish.
then pia dere do till tution.
1-5pluspm.
tiring.
haish.
revise sec3 things lor.
haish.
im still weak.
i noe.
haish.
after tution help her again till hmm 9?
haaas make my marmie need to "da pao" dinner to her hse.
haish.
ate my full n continue to help.
till sort of done for that day.
then play maple n do my geo WS.
haish.
im a pro.
heeex.



today.
sch was eeeeerrrrrrr.
ok lar.
Poa revision.
then mrs kaan nvr cum.
heard frm Amaths.
mrs chang will be MC for 2 weeks n de haf.
oh mans.
n the relief cher was said to be sucky.
sian.
PW was 2pid.
gep was much more fun.
chinese was fun also.



band.
manx.
so darm 2pid lor.
we tot that the wooden door was locked.
but de truth is no.
coz we juz had no strength to push open the door.
haaaas.
n i guess we waste alot of time on that.
nr ng was unhappy.
haish.
sanjoy was ur saviour for that day.
he managed to force open the door.
haaas.
next time better ask a guy to do the job.
lolx.

mr ng scold de librarians, QMs n majors.
wtf.
ask de QMas to stand lor.
n he was dwn dere toking all de craps.
mi n joyce cant even hear.
jianxiong, i guess he cant hear also.
dou mr ng was facing him n scold.
lolx.
kind of lame.
then he wanted us to pack the rm.
haaas.
the rm so small.
how to arrange!!???
nvm.
will try to think of sth.
reeds.
those wif de dust.
we have to clean.
manx.
haish.
where got de time.
haish.
fine.
will try to wriggle out de time.



band was a bore today seriously.
n hmm.
my lips almost crack.
notes were high n long.
n all the pieces are tiring.
exp "The Saint And The City".
okok.
i think its enoff of blogging.
i got my SS to do n POA.
miss mi luck.
wads de time already!!!!
*gosh*

went out wif song song today.
sorry hor.
let u wait so long.
haish.
hmm.
went to funan.
she want to cut her hair lor.
kimage there.
$16.80.
juniors cut de.
hmm.
the outcome was nice.
but then i duno y she keep on saying its ugly.
-_-lll


then went to shop at suntec.
went foodcourt to have desserts.
chat chat.



went esplanade ltr.
hagen daas.
song eat da brownie thingy.
i see her eat.
n help her pay 1st.
yar.


that was wad happen today.
kind of lame rite.
-_-lll






[u will nvr noe how i feel, i dun think its possible for mi to really tok to you face to face. for it dun works. u duno wad u r doing. it makes no different for mi if i tell u or not. everyone hates u. im speaking de truth.]

sch reopen today.
go there so darm sian.
hmm.
i woke up late.
at 6.30am.
was toking to my lao shi.
haaas.
n qabir lor.
heees.
2.30am den slp.
heeeees.



sing sing n sing praise to the lord.
frm 8-9 like tat.
then so back class.
wa!
so far back lor.
but i sort of like it lars.
haaaas.
classrm was so darm pack.
smaller.
haish.
sianz.
then 9.30 sch tour.
walk around like idiots.
lols.



then recess.
after that go back class.
11.15 bueeei bueeei liao lor.
this is how it ended.
-_-lll.



after that went makan wif waimin n siewhua.
waaaaa.
the bus-stop was so darm packed.
but we managed to squeeze into the 2nd "26" bus.
lol.
went singapore post da long john to makan.
i nvr eat anything for breakfast.
haish.
i will quite full after that.
haaas.




went home i orh orh le.
like pig hor.
heee.
very tired ma.
haaaas.




haish.
i really miss that bum equipment wallet.
blue, long kind de.
oh man.
maybe im not fated wif it.
haish.
i wan go in lehx.
*weeps*

okiex. im here again to update.
r u happy qabir?? -_-lll
hmm. ytd yupx. wen JB.
go in errr around 1plus 2 reach lor.
b4 that wen the causeway point there shop shop.
went to this particular shop which we always go for lunch.
simply like the ducky thingy in there.
n this huge duck looks nice huh?
lolx.

after da lunch.
of coz went da shop shop lor.
at da city square.
always go too lor.
coz errrr.
ask the adults.
they think that that place is huge n up-to-fashion lar.
young adults like mi n my cuzzin,shiyin onli.
of cuz have to follow lor.
this time round go in darm boring lor.
no time ma.
this shop nice nots?
haha.
lame.

this was her.
shiyin.
yupx.
i noe im retarded wen intro her here.
-_-lll.
we were outside that mango shop.
ssssoooo tired.
family fren was too engross to da clothes inside.

look at this pic below.
even adults cant stand.
heeees.

haaaas.
that was y cuzzin n mi.
ppl tot i wore make-up on this pic but i seriously NVR!
juz rosey cheeks la.
i also duno y i have.
n to mt dear gurl liyi.
i noe u are suprised that i wore sth errr.
laaaaas.
im juz making my dear marmie happy.
so i wore this thing.
but i wun dare to wear it again.
im too fair!
plus i sux on it.
end.

ok.
in the taxi.
it sux too.
the traffic was really tight.
n that 2pid driver.
drive so fast for wad.
its like car-racing lor.
my heart almost jump out.
i tot i cant make it back to singapore.
grrrrrr....

its getting dark.
i reach dat "Belanji".
this is where i had my dinner.
not at kelong.
adults no money.
=((((.
its at the left la.
eat seafood of cuz.
haaaaas.
im getting more n more itchy.
my wrist.
lorrrs.
recover liao.

two golden hair aunties.
thats my family fren on dat left.
haaaaas.
gona miss her till sunday nite.
she nw on plane le.
going bangkok.
rich lor she.
haish.

marmie tinks im crazy.
taking 2pid things.
haaaaas.

this picture below is whr we eat.
errrr.
i can say its rather cheap lar.
so frens.
do go here.
i lurbeee that lime juice wif sour plum.
da glass was so huge.
n i think RM2 only lehx.
haaaaas.


manx.
duno wen going in again.
think next holidays bah.
yeah!
fun fun fun!
oh man.
shiyin went to pierce 2 more holes on her ear.
RM16.
haish.
siao lor.
so many holes for wad.
duno her lar.
today come my hse sum more infection le.
haish.
i regreted on thing.
for not buying sth.
THAT BLUE BUM EQUIPMENT WALLET!!!!!
IT WAS REAL PRECIOUS TO ME.
thinking back.
i really want it so badly.
haish.
see whe singapore have or not.
but i guess.
dun have ba.
haiz.
so sad lor.





ok.
this afternoon im real busy.
haiz.
help my dear cuzzin in her competition thing lor.
haish.
see whe can win or not ma.
its de com i take part in last year.
n i won 3rd prize!
n was in news n in friday weekly.
manx.
i still keep tat paper.
n i hope my dear cuzzin will win.
so help her lor.
haaaaaas.
m i gud?
tell mi tell mi.
=P





sorry arhx waimin.
im really broke.
coz i dun want spent marmie money.
so i change RM myself.
then now broke.
$1o this month.
n i need to save so badly.
sorry sorry.
i think i make u real dwn lar.
sorry.
=((


man.
tml sch reopen.
so sian.
haish.












[the only person hu can hurt u deeply, are the ones whom u care about]
i believe in this sentence. it juz simply happens. so 2pid. hate u bitch. stop it!

ytd was another a day.
band was quite errr ok.
n i kana scolded.
for myself is being silly.
sort of errrr my mouth went so 2pit-ly numb.
y arhx.
i also duno la.
so 2pit.
haaaaaaaaas.
im still struggling wif "John Williams In Concert".
the ending now.
haish.
have to pia le.
or else ng not happy.
haiz.



after band.
ha ha.
PLAY TIME!!!!!
WHOOOOOOOSH!!!
i got so much fun xia.
hmm.
wanning was not there.
but my cuzzin,shihan was there.
esther n a bf also.
but then later went off.
we were playing volleyball.
so fun.
then when gt enoff players,
we switch to captain's ball.
heeeeeeees.
olivia was still darm funi.
lolx.
after esther n her bf left.
we play a childhood game lar.
those sort of "spliting" or sth.
have to play de "scissors,paper.stone" thingy.
if u lose,
then u will find ur legs spliting.
lolx.
then another one ish the "pesi-cola 1 2 3" thingy.
haaas.
that was indeed fun.
i won 4 rounds or three ba.
n they were scared of mi.
muhahahahahahahahahaahahahah.
buti keep on having myself spliting all the time.
haaaas.
XD.


yea! going johor le.
gtg n prepare my stuffs le.
bueeei bueeeeei.


[had a bad quarrl wif my mum. everything is sort of over liao. coz going johor ma. haish. tink back is all becoz of me. for being unreasonable, riduculous, stubborn, rude n wadeva. im juz so frustrated. everyone was making mi so. i juz had enoff. man. my eyes were so swollen. haish.]


[simplyhateyoubitch.nomatterwadthefuckusay,hahaiwungiveitadarm.uliedtomi.manubitch.thetruthisoutliao.unoneedtothinkthat
uwin.butthefactisulose!bleach!ihateyoubitch!]


hey song. thankiew for comforting mi. errr. i duno whe u can see it but errrrr hmmmm. hope u can la. thx arhx girl. n of coz u see my retarded side of life n errr de weaker too lor. but really im like that lar. super retarded after i weep or cry. being retarded is of coz toopid lar. haaaas. juz errr enjoy? heeeees. k lar. neway. thx for everything. thankiew!!!! XD.

wad a day!
played captian's ball cum volleyball after band xia.
heees.
wif wanning, kharloo, liyi, peiyi, olivia, huiying, yifen n mi lor.
heeees.
play until very lei.
haaaaaas.
darm fun anyway.
i duno fall dwn how many times.
heeees.
gt a scar on my knee now.
pain arhx.
haaaas.
olivia really make mi real scared.
she pass de ball n kick very de scary lor.
haaaas.
peiyi n kharloo shld noe.
coz wen olivia throw de ball.
a real high one.
i duno y im so scared.
till i melt to the ground.
n really.
i melted.
the others was like.
"yingyin! wad happen to you? y like tat?".
lolx.
haaaaaaas.
also dunno.
i duno fall how many times.
all becoz im nt known abot the flying ball.
n its real cuming towards mi.
haaaisssss.
im real a clumsy person.
also.
olivia hor.
alamak.
i almost not a virgin lor.
almost hit my...errr...bottom errrr...wen im the catcher of my team.
then my top lalala. almost kana de ball how many times!!!???
mans.
so errrr....funi??
heeees.





ok lar.
tok abit about de band.
hmm.
band was a real....eeeerrrrrr.
i duno wad to say.
ok lar.
i will say roughly wad happen.
mr ng was late.
n was darm bad mood.
then he scold the clarinets and left de other sections for lunch 1st.
haish.
then later de clarinets join our table.
olivia cried.
haish.
all thx to ng.
haish.
got an hr of sectional after tat.
finally clear up those funi funi parts in de "When You Believe" score wif darren.
haaaas.
after tat combine.
hmm.
play lor.
then ng ask we all to divide ourselves into 1 2 n 3.
yar.
im the lucky number 1.
we grp by grp go off-stage to hear lor.
errrr.
then the wen we go up.
he ask we to say comments.
then flare up.
yar.
the peiyi got cry.
arhx.
she very frustrated ma.
haish.
but then all thx to judith.
heees.
we she started to say.
mr ng smile liao.
heees.
judith ish our savior.
woooohooo!


after that mr ng nt happy.
then de trombone section la.
duno hu the hell reply nr ng that they are tired.
then hai de wo men kana 20 push-ups.
actually ish run the hall 10 rounds.
think coz waste time bahx.
haiz.
after that went through the "John Willians In Concert".
ok lar that piece.
heees.
wa!
mr ng say all de brass need to play "Fanfare 9".
sum more...OFF-STAGE!!!!!!
oh my!! that will be...hahaz.
nvm lar.
we horns need to play one long note.
heees.
at the end.
so no stress at all.
muhahahahahahahahaahahahahahahah!!!!!
XD.



hmm.
now listerning to "Fate Of The Gods".
next will be "Persis"!!!!!.
oh mans!!!.
will let mi think of fuchun.
*sniff*.
miss them so much.
than now duno how them le.
nvr seems to hear frm them anymore.
hiash.
how i wish they will come n practise wif us.
that will be so much fun.
but.
now exchange cant see them.
haish.
our band exchange will be so darm boring.
haiz.
sssssoooo sad lor.
y must this happen!!!!???
haish.
sum more nr ng say preparing alot of exchanges for us.
think sure come to our new holding sch de ba.
now that bloodly place so big.
haish.



ok. today seems to be a darm long entry.
but then i duno y i got tons to say.
ok now.
lets say about news.
recently about the china woman murder case.
manx.
i cant believe myself that my young uncle noe da murderer's son.
mans.
haish.
then my father sort of noe the murderer!!
scarey.
that heard frm marmie abot wad dardie told her.
she told mi that de murderer sort of cum to da market whr my dardie work.
then got rumours said that he sort of find tat china woman la.
then la la la lor.
in the end de woman wan to marry other guy.
he bu shuang.
so.
bueeei bueeeei to de woman.
marmie say she kana killed in the murderer's hse.
*yucks*
sick lor.
he nvr tink of his children.
heard his daughter teacher.
the one son, think older one la, my uncle de fren ish in NUS.
then poly is another son.
duno liao.
haiz.
so poor thing.
ok lar.
enoff of it.
tml.
haiz.
another...errrr....lalala day.
heeees.










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ithingihavnoritestogoncareijuzanobodyplzduntellmiidunwishtonoenihadenoffofeverything.]




-things are juz repeating. but i wun give a bloodly darm to it. to mi, its nth at all. i wun becoz of you...YOU...to make my day lousy. u r juz a fucking ***** to mi n a bitchy ****. i got nth much to say. but no matter wad happen. i wun give a darm n i wun care. u r a nth to mi. n i think im a real retarded fool to believe in wad u say n do. mans. u are a real slut. i hate you. go away. as far as u wan. if u dun, i will scram. but then anyway its nth to do wif mi. i dun see you any way. so wad for i care, u this bloodly idiotic fucker. i hate to get mean. i hate to get so vulgar. but all is becoz i cant take it anymore. u push mi to my limits. i hate you. i really hate you alot. u betray mi as a fren. n i hate it. u. i dun wana noe abot u anymore. the sight of u make mi puke. u slut! I HATE YOU!!!! x@

hees.
im back to blog blog blog!
whoooooosh!
bored ma.
hmm.
today tution was a errr..bad?
sssssooooo much careless mistakens all of a sudden.
im not in da usual mi.
haiz.
feel bit sicky.
coz ytd nt eat ma.
tilll 11pm dardie force mi to eat.
then eat.
errrrrr.
i get very uncomfortable this morning lor.
coz im nott use to SUPPER!!!!
lolx.
depends la.
coz stomach nt gud nowadays.



now im listerning tto "El Camino Real".
by Alfred Reed.
Its nice yet difficult.
im ssssssoooooo saaaaad.
haiz.
i must really train myself in fast music.
haiz.
of coz must oil my da horn de valves lor.
coz since de day i got my new horn,
thats the only time i oil.
sooo,
its beeen......
7 mths??
8 mths??
haaaaas.
lost count.
it was darm stiff i can say.




im stillll stuck at da "John Willians In Concert".
da part which is sort of catchy??
qabir, u shld noe wad i mean.
ok.
im a real 2pit gurl.
that will errrrr can count as slow wen compared to persis.
but then the figuring must change alot.
frm T12 to T23 or lalala.
ok.
frm now.
i must really oil my horn da valves le.
qabir.
plz remind mi.
thankiew very much.



anyway,
words to qabir.
thx for ur comments n de " daa ji". hmm. ok. i reply u here dun mine rite? sort of la. hmm. errrrr. basically,she DUN know how to read a proper score. i remind her alot of times abot it n she cleanly forget. n i had no choice to remind her again n again. n she go on deaf ears. -_-lll. plz help!!!! example, rmb P&P overture? de part is 6/8,i think. de tuba n us play de sort of down beat. tuba play 1st beat, we played de 2nd n 3rd? think u noe la. then i use tap for her one beat by one beat rite, she duno play how many times. then i ok lar. i tell her that part ish i tap a dwn beat she play one beat n so on. then she sort of dun get wad i mean. then repeat n repeat. then she catches it le. wen i nvr say like, " Rest, play play, Rest, play play", she immediately forgotten it liao. then i re-teach again n again. she duno how to count, see score and listern???. haiz. dunoo le lehx. some more she pri sch player!!!!! manz. *faint*. pppppppplllllzzzzzzzzzzzz help mi b4 u n darren step dwn on my BIRTHDAY lehx. or else i really die until very jialat. I cant keep on teaching her wen she cant absorb??? eh. plz keep this her. in this errrrrrr blog?? heees.

haas.
so funi.
todday at U channel juzz now ish our sch da tuurn.
i mean da "you hua jui shuo"-"Lets Shoot!" la.
haas.
see my 2pitt head dwn deree larr.
hhaaa.
phew.
but got a few glance on my side.
phew.
being block!
hahahahas.
sooo funniii.

hmm.
tinnkk ii gott quitte a feww tinngs to sayy heree.
hee.


toddayy baand kiind of siannz loor.
sectionall all daa wayy.
nvrr reeally doo muchh.
haas.
mii todayy likkee kanna yuchun until very jialat.
butt i told her le.
whicch unluckky junniorr will comme n plaayy horn ritte,
mii will kanna thhat junnior unttill veery jiaalatt also.
i will makkee suure shhe pracctisse likkee siiao llor.
n oof cozz mii myysellf hhave to sett exammple loor.
hees.
doouu mmyy patiancce hoorr iss ratheerr "thick" la.
i allso dunno y.
haaas.
tooodayy i really teach yuchun.
seriously.
i really like wannt to diee loor.
i repeat duunooo hooww manny timees.
shhee duun seeems tto bbe listerning.
thhen i duunooo y i keeepp onn laffing.
maybe im tryyingg tto makke itt less stressfull forr heer larr.
haaiz.
i alsoo wisshh tatt shhe will enjjoyy playying denn feel stress.
haaizz.
duunno larr.



afterr daa thhing goo ooutt wiff shhiyinn n xiupeii.
tto sunntecc.
eatt att foodcourt iin dee endd.
haas.
thhen saww qabir rachel darren they all.
haaas.
theeyy goo mac tto eatt.




theen wwee ggo n meett daa suum orr samme grrp oof clarinet section tatt alwayss playy captain's baall.
att timmess issh beehinnd mmy hssseee daa baackk deeree.
yuup.
thhenn plaay wiif theeem.
sssoooo muuchhh fffuunn thaat caaan bee maan.
reallly ennjoyy allot plaayying wiif thhem.
liyi,peiyi,yifen,isabel,olivia,huiying,kharloo,xiupei,shiyin n mi!
att 1sst gott essthher n heerr bf de.
thhen thhey goo hoomee liaao.
haass.
wwee were really shouting likke siao loor.
exp wen de baalll frrm opponent to us or etc.
we really shout likeee noobody'ss business.
haaaz.
thats reallly fuun funn n fuunn!!!
heees.
theeen affteerr thhat wee sttartteed talkking n dddo lootssa chaaatiing.
movies, ghost, ppl n succh.
haaas really ssso fun!

i gt alot of things weighing in my mind.
but then wad can i do.
im juz a real failure in everything i do.
hu will cares anyway.






nvm.
got a gud cryy durring bathee timee.
so.
tml.
might.


breakdwn?
wadeva....





ok.
i shldd lett goo summ thinngs.
i noee jiee.
but thann i cantt conttroll myyselff.
its nott easyy.
ii nvvr plaayy mmyy paart.
okk.
orr i shldd puut itt thhiss waay.
i ddunnoo yy imm suuddenn ssooo likke datt.
ii reallyy dunnoo whheere daa emmtiiionall thingyy camme ouut too mii all oof sudden.
iii reaallyy duunoo loor.
hhaiiz.
mmaayyybee.
ii strreesss uup baahx.
ii allsso dunno.




sum fuchun came today.
ok lar.
nott in da mmoood to carry on typing.
tml den sayy.
buaai.

[You may be feeling that others are a little more in control of your destiny at this time, but don't worry. Many things may soon be about to change for you. Try not to allow fear or guilt to cloud your mind right now. Just remember that you’re quite capable of working hard and devoting yourself to some larger and more important goals.]
glads alrite. phew.

saw a skin.
want to change.
but cant see my posts.
then 4get it.
i want to change lehx.
haiz.
im really a blog-skipper.


haha.
juz now went to update my passport da photo.
going johor liao ma.
then might not go band.
depends wad time i come back.
hehex.
n depends on da crowd on dat day.
hees.


see da macpherson 1st hornist gurl on de bus.
hahaz.
tink she noe mi bahx.
haha.




[woooozhiiddaaonnnaayiiijjiinnggshigguoqudashhileedannwooyyoonnggyuuandduobbuuhhuiiwaangjii]

man.
im figuring out how to put band song into my blog.
Phantom of the opera.
its so bloodly darm nice lor.
how i wish i can put manx.
haiz.
anyone can help??

marmie was piss with da water bill.
coz my family wun use so much water.
the bill read tat we almost use a pool of water last mth.
n its impossible.
we nvr will read so much water.
nvm.



went to eat wif marmie gor liang liang n auntie n family fren.
to da sakura at dwntown east.
its quite nice.
but i recently got a bad gastric.
then stomach weak weak de.
no appettite.
so i ate quite little.
n drank lots of water.
fruit punch, those freeze.
*blurrrrrr*



after our meal.
gor go home.
rest of us go cut cut hair.
hahaz.
do steaming.
now hair not dry dry le.
n smell nice nice.
hehe.
got trim my hair alot.
then re-layer.
frm my fringe.
then kind of short la.
but then family fren say its nice.
ok lar.
hehex.

today band.
most ppl turn up!
so glad lor.
we try ya perfect de "March Together".
n it sounds really great.
=)


"When u Believe" is next.
oh man.
play 1st horn.
then went to sit beside darren.
then errrr, my pitching is errrrr, bad?
then cant tahan.
overall is quite ok.
but i really need to train alot in my pitching.
must ganpateh!!!!
hehex.


"spongebob square pants" is darm bloodly funny lor!!!
horn saxophone n clarinets.
we have to shout "spongebob square pants!".
man. it was so funny!!
then the starting more funky!
have to shout out wad the captain n his shipmates say!
"Are you ready kids?" "Aye-ay Captain!" "I cant hear u!" "Aye-ay Captain!".
so funny lor.
wish judith was there to join in de fun manz.
so cheeky lor.



they went back to my seat.
yah!
hahaz.
wadeva.
then play de p n p.
duno de name of the score.
short term memory ma.
hehe.
its wad de KSWS played.
its nice.
but can die.
3rd de notes is high enoff liao.
piang.
i must really practise my pitching.
or else wen darren n qabir step dwn i die until very jialat.
-_-lll.




i regreted so much not to brg my horn home.
but i was real tired n restless.
i nvr eat a thing at all whole day.
n i was having gastric throughout the whole practise(only waimin noes).
haiz.
then my horn so heavy.
dun wan go dieting.
haiz.
i wan a horn bag le.
but then marmie sure say its a waste of money.
=(((.

today's tution.
i requsted to revise my sec2's work.
n tutor allow.
n im really happy.

after tution i rush to meet song, her dardie, qabir n liyi.
city hall 2.15pm.
then go esplanade concert hall together.
free de.XP
we arrive early.
haf an hr early.
then already gt alot of ppl there le.
SWS really rawks so much.
they played "mononoke".
im not sure of the spelling.
hehe.
but i simply lurbee the horn solo so much!
yar.
still gt play hmm,
star wars de theme song, beauty n the beast, Phantom of the opera,etc.
mi short term mermory.
but they played real nice.



after concert was walking wif song, her dardie n liyi.
we went raffles city de burger king there n hav sum snackz.
then discuss about de performance n band issues.
song dardie so funi.
really enjoyed so much.
hehex.
thx song!


[You could find yourself secretly longing to express your affection for someone today. But you might be inclined to keep your feelings to yourself and may even feel a bit like secluding yourself from others for a while. But this shouldn't be an unpleasant experience. You might just find it helpful for getting in touch with yourself right now.]
->hmm my horoscope for today. hmm. kind of truth.=(



a messenge to u noe hu:
sorry my hp batt low. yar. so nvm. pluz i got quite alot to tell u. hope u dun mind i write it here lar.
love is a very complicated game. its a game that no one can control. even god. love can be compared to the weather of a tropical climate. or u can saw the tides of the sea. its not always calm. it will have its rainy season n dry season. making it simple. we dun always get the sun. we dun always get night. our life is really like the day n the night. we spent most of the time in the day n less on night. in the day, we see sun. sun represents happiness. this is what we get most of the time. at night, we got the moon. moon can represent silence, quiet, eerie at times, lonely. if this compared to feelings, it means sadness. god always balances up things. this is an example. we got a mixture of day n night in life = mixture of feelings in life. love is juz a matter that confused the whole situation. so, besides day n night. there's weather. so weather is introdued. in another words. love is introdued in life. love=weather. rainy, sunny, cloudy,etc. most of the time is sunny rite? love can be real "sunny" in another words is "honeymoon". but for u now. its isnt anymore right. it leads to cloudy. the weather is so cloudy that its blocking the warmth of the sun coming to earth. making the earth windy n cold. the blocking of the sun is meant by, blocking ur mouth frm saying de truth. so it causes alot of lies to cover up a truth. those lies are those clouds which are blocking.
u might at times deny that u dun like him le. but u noe. frm my point of u n how i understand u, i believe. u had not 4get. u might deny to mi everytime n so on. but then, as a fren. thats wad i believe. liking a person is always easy. but letting go is forever difficult. i dun mind u flare up at mi. but lieing to yourself, making the weather in ur life so cloudy. its not healthy. if this continues, u might not understand urself in future.
now. the feeling the u tell mi in sms is a rainless storm. no tears but a really large storm is inside ur heart. lightning, thunder, strong wind and a stubborn girl.
-lightning refers to the matter "she" ask.
-thunder refers to ur mood(u tends to flare up),
-strong wind refers to confusion.
u project urself as a little girl standing in a grass field.
lightning was striking, n u get a shocked. for its like a problem u had to ans b4 the thunder roar.
followed by thunder, u hide ur inter uneasiness inside urself. once de lightning comes again. ur mood will tends to go out of control.
strong wind. making u cold n uneasy.de feeling of->(cloudy). whirls n whirls of circular wind = whirls n whirls of confusion.
a stubborn girl who is u, is standing in the grass field. being stubborn. u refuse to run for a shelter. yet u stood dere thinking that god will give u a shelter immediately n the shelter will be dropped dwn frm the sky. instead, u shld ask god for protection n ask him to help u to find a shelter to stay under frm de uncoming storm. i believe god will ans ur prayer n help u to complete ur fears. but standing dwn dere in the grass field waiting for god to drop a shelter frm above to protect u is impossible. being stubborn, u keep on standing there and wait till in the end, death approaches.
i telling u that. in order to succeed in yourself. u got to trust urself n tell urself that god will be always there to help u in every problem u face. i belive that god doesnt want his children to be spoonfed. as if like the stubborn girl above, waiting for god to drop a shelter frm above to protect her. u got to tell urself the truth n help urself b4 no one can help u. god will guide u along n help u. u can do it. lieing to yourself will soon be leads to the death of ur own trust. juz like the death of the stubborn girl. u cant be like tat.
hmm. i think thats about it. u go n think again. if u dun noe wad i mean, u r free to give mi a call. i will be always there.=)
anyway, the matter of telling her or not. best i will say is a no. coz. im afriad it might affect her.=)

went out wif song to ps.
shop n eat.
then she go for her piano.
i go century sq find jie.
saw ms khek n her boyfren.
hehex.
jie say they watch "Mr n Mrs Smith".
haha.
walk walk around at tm.
holidays really nth to do.
haiz.
then go out so sian.
dun really want to spend.
wan go work scared marmie scold.
then nvm.
i be guai kia.
go out wif my frens n go band.
n pei marmie gor gor cuzzin go out.
marmie bringing mi n gor gor go "sakura" dere n eat next tues.
wed go woodlands dere cut hair.
mon n thur got band.
haiz.
n im sick.
i wana get well!!!
hehe.

goldfish got da brains meh?
goldfish noe how to count meh?
i only noe goldfish hor,
swim swim in da water lehx.
y noe how to play clarinet arhx?


i noe im mean.
but i nvr see such a gal like her b4.
she's really.....
ARGHX....
nvm.



she's named goldfish...coz......
she looks like one.
her pony-tall looks like da tail.(serious!!)
she do pumping like one. (use tummy)




man.
she thinks she da "da jie da"
pui!!!
she really kana hated by alot of ppl.
for she offend them.
i nvr hate a person like that b4.
this is too unbearable!!!

hmm.
band today.
was.........
i could say it's sucky.
ng kana de sec1s until really can die.
pump them like siao.
100 odd lor.
sum lesser n sum more.
this resulted coz no senior clarinets go.
they quite angry n sad.
haiz.
whr are those clarinets.
sec 2s??
nvm.




actually today ng brought a new jap piece for us.
then see de result.
he very piss.
then keep on doing on the scales n "march together".
repeating n repeating.
then scold de sec1s.
haiz.



we sight-read two pieces today.
"Popstage" n "When You Believe".
plzyed 1st horn.
lips very de suan exp for de "popstage"
haha.
darren die le.
haha.
i could make it sum how.
so think he no prob le la.







ssssoooo happy.
finally i think i improve alittle.
all thx to those horn studies n concertos.
and a trip to KSWS.
haha.




manz.
hope ng will not cancelled de combine concert wif FFO.
fanfare band.
plz plz plz plz plz plz plz plz dun!!!!..

went swimming again.
wif shiyin.
hehx.
i planning go on friday.
hahaz.
yippee!!!
hope that its blazing hot.
muhahahahahahaz.
*retarded*


mr ng say we going to have combined concert with FFO.
play Awakening.
Dutch band coming to our new school da band rm.
rehearsal purpose.
yay!
can learn frm them free.
oh man!
aren't we lucky??
we band sure cherish those time with them!
wooohooo!!!




[if there's band camp at victoria? man man. where's my bible? amen.]








god i lurbeee u so much!!!!
ur great!!!!
=)))))))))
__________________________-so in lurbee with him!!!! awww....swt swt swt <3<3

currently i will use this skin.
coz my another skin got problem.
haiz.


ok. my viwe for man today ish...
"STINK"
"EERIE"
manz.
its so ghostly lor.
our band rm is underground de.
sum how like fuchun like that.
then wen this morning we are about to get in.
there's a very strong, stinky, deadly smell.
which was said to be a cockroach's nest.
bleahx!
pluz.
inside.
there's a gate saying "no entry".
it was said that there's a guy that died inside.
oh man.
thats really "kind" of de principal to put us there.
=(




girls toilet.
so many mirrors.
siao lor.
7 i think.
mad.


haiz.
thursday have to go again.
its gona be "fun".
i guess.
-_-lll

went swimming with olivia and shiyin ytd.
swam for 20 odd rounds.
gastric.
hahaz.
nvr eat ma.
then dip in da pool.
and play.
hahaz.
fun.





later going band liao.
what will it be like?
haha.

ytd was Flag day.
i hav to be real thick-skined.
n i was.

went tampines de neighbourhood dere.
mi n siewhua onli.
we share a tin.
coz not enoff ma.
waimin went to near de mrt de back buildings dere n do.
cherly went to da traffic light to de neighbourhood and do.
hehex.
actually mi n siewhua wana go to da playground dere n do.
coz will hav alot of ppl wen it cums to lunch time.
then saw darren n stanley->if im not wrg.
then mi n siewhua go look for sum place n do.


we landed outside an uncle shop.
he's so cheeky!
hahaz.
he say he help to boost de number of donors by turning de music of his shop real loud.
and wa la !
it really works.
hehex.
his shop de fengshui so wang!
hahaz.
got alot of ppl donate.
n our tin is really full manx.



wen waimin n cherly cum n find us.
they were impressed.
hehex.
then after they go for a drink,(de weather was a killing)
i ask them to go to de opposite.
n i sort of go n help them to ask for donors.
waimin keep on laffing at mi.
for or lar.
i very siao la.
n very thick-skinned lar.
hahaz.
must like that de ma.
she say im very suitable to be a promoter.
hehe.
=)))))))))

of cuz i nvr neglect siewhua.
i went over to help her alittle.
she kindof thick-skined like mi do.
so she also really make de real tin full.
i was running about.
hehex.




thinking back.
if i really think that im siao.
and i duno y i tend to get so thick-skined manx.
hahaz.
maybe cuz i duno them.
then like tat lor.
he=)))






<3<3<3_________so in lurbee wif god each passing day. he's de smile in mi! XP

went out wif my cuzzin(shiyin).
its cuzzin's day.
hahaz.
bit lame.

all cuz of mi.
im abit lost in my way.
coz i no nth about directions.
n looking for a building tat i wan to go.
seems to be like looking for a pin in da sea.
haiz.



we were at heeren at 1st.
then went all da way to orchard.
treat my cuzzin sum real ex ice-cream.
n she say da she was very reluctant to eat.
hahaz.
then go back to heeren.
then paragon.
then walk to a unknown building.
n in the end i found da building i wan to go.
its juz in front of heeren.
n i juz see.
i juz change a new spec.
it seems that i need a new one.
piang.




saw angela wif her dar dar.
hahaz.
dun dare to wave at them.
so mi n my cuzzin ran off.
hahaz.






went singapore post.
b4 that at mrt.
saw a lao di ko.
sux man.
tok to my cuzzin.
he keep on smiling.
retarded.
went SP da this fashion.
went shop for clothes.
mi help her pay.
coz she nvr bring $ out today.
hahaz.









<3 <3 <3______so in lurbee wif god each day...

went to da "Lets Shoot!" programme ytd.
da "hua ti" is about BGR,Love.
its kind of fun.
doigf retarded things.
clap non-stop for mins.
so toopid.
da "yi feng"...da girl hostress sprain her waist.
guess very pain ba.
can see frm her face.
so kelian.



wen we students have to say abot our views.
john said this," ......if u eat too much ice-cream n dun excerise....".
i short-term memory.
but wad he had said really rawks man.
da parent dere like lao di ko lor.
bish.
wad sex after marriage.
as if we love our stead is to do sex.
PUH!
he keep on putting love as marriage.
ok.
to end wad im gona say.
this time round da show will be very interesting.
must watch.
hahaz.





message to jie(rachel)-
at times. u sms mi. say yar miss him wen u see sum things u n him do together b4 or that thing will think of him. i will say n put it as "self-illusion". i mean for long u had been telling yourself that "it"(da thing tat make u think of him) is him. wen this becums a habit. life will not change. u r juz having a sort of self-illusion on sum things jie. i noe letting go of a guy is simply too difficult.
its like slicing a piece of yar flesh out. but if that love is not yours. wad 4 being so stubborn n think that its still yours? its lost liao. totally lost. in order for u to really let him go. stop thinking about wad u n him had done in da past. its all over. its juz a dream. sumtimes i noe im harsh wen i sms u or sth. or hafway i nvr reply u. i juz wan u to go n think wen i say these two words"self-pitying" and "self-illusion". jie. rmb. no one will pity u any longer if u keep on repeating da mistakes again n again. he's juz a toopid guy. that everyone hates. a flirt. he will be punish my god sum day. for not cherishing his steads. god noes everything. trust god. he's almighty. =)