went to beach jux now.as soon as i wake up. 9 plus reach there le..yar. go there do POA study. den walk round the place then i go whitesands to shop. so darm sianz. haiz. marmie nag le. tata.

haiz. now at my cousin's house. hmm. thursday went Kbox wif judith, songying, waimin, darren n jianxiong. at tampiness dere. ya...go there sing sing. yup. ok larx. den we go eat burger king. make mi sick after tat. bleahx. kk gtg tata.

there are so much pleasant things in front of me. but. im still holding on to the unpleasant things in my heart. why am i doing this. i should be enjoying later wif my frens. but then. why i dun feel hapi at all. why!
now. i reali hope tat jie was here. n tell mi wat to do. i should let go all the unpleasant things and give welcum the pleasant things in my heart. haiz. im so troubled. reali troubled. wat to do!



hOw i wIsH i cOuLd tEll hIm 2 4gEt mI..

6 mOnThS lE..

wAt tO dO..

i rEaLi hOpe tAt hE wUn bOtHEr mI aGaIn...

sUmOnE pLz hElP mI!!!!

im sick. boohoohoo. slight fever. fine. tired manx. no mood for anything. so 2pit. so darm stress. duno wat to tell my ex. he hasnt been online. wat to tell him sumthing. wan him 4get mi. haiz. wat the. fine.
cried in band yesterday. hu noes. hu cares. onli jie noe. nvm. no one even cares. den dun wan to cry in front of the whole band. so i ask jie pei mi go toilet n cry. haiz. so darm stress up wif so many things. zi bao zi ji. haiz. im such a loser. nvm. i go and sturdie my POA to cheer mi up.tata.

he cant force mi to like him. i dun wan to force myself n lie to myself once again. he is stressing mi so much so much. why is this happening to mi. how m i suppose to sae? it's been so long. 6 months le. i broke wif him 6 months le. now he wana patch up. ask mi to give him a chance. why! wad m i going to do. god! plaz tell mi wat to do. im totally stress out. later got band. i dun think im smiling nor laughing. wad to do? nth. nvm. mayb i will sit rite there daydreaming.hu cares rite? fine!
[b.R.e.A.k.D.o.W.n]

i jux wana cry out loud!!!! darm it!

last friday. mi n yuchun onli lor. den haiz. play till stomach cramp n gastric. pain xia. den hav to endure. got one part mr ng ask the horn to blast. horn n saxo got the same part. den he ask yuchun dun play. left mi n the 4 saxo. dun he ask mi to play louder. he onli can hear mi abit onli. haiz. haiz. after band went swee lee wif emmeline. her parents drove us dere. coz rainning very heavily marx. den her parents drove mi back home. thankiew. went home n bath. later joyce father drove mi n rachel to joyce's hse. hahaz. i long time never see dog. den go joyce hse c her dog very scared. hahaz. timid mi. hahaz. very cute and horney xia. hahaz.
after tat. we went to the passing out parade. okiex larx. den got TKSS Band there playing too. hmm. the band major march in and play at the same time. den follow by drum majors. it's ok. march pass.den later prize presentation. and den hmm...ya drum major throw the maze. shikin made a mistake. hehex. later ish the band major. they march and play. got one grp stands at the back n play and got another grp march n play. darren was in it. quite ok lorx.
everything end at around 8pm. we went to find shikin. she was running around. asking us to take photos for her. aiyo. den we go find darren coz they shikin wana take together.
hahaz. shikin was famous there. hahz. everyone shouting her name. hahaz. very funi larx. den joyce left le. left mi and rachel. we wait for darren n shikin. hahaz. in the end is we wait for shikin. we went BP n later take bus to Newton MRT hahz. on the bus shikin go crazy lor. she was like shouting in the bus for the NCO camp majors to intro. haiz. she crazy le la. we planned to go bugis. but den shikin marmie called. so we nvr go. the moment after my bath. immediately stomach cramp like hell. my stomach was like sqeezing so hard. i noe this will happen. faint den later wake up. boohoohoo.
hmm...ok yesterday de band ok larx. Mr Loh-> a horn instruter frm the Singapore Youth thingy de came to teach us. ok larx. i jux need to play louder n tats all. haiz. stomach cramp how to play loud. haiz. mi got alot of things to go practice. haiz. last nite studie POA. den stuck in the Accounting Entity..later try to solve lorx...hehx...haiz..online too long le...waa!!! o took almost 1 hr to write....hehex. nw helping ppl write testi and searching for frens...gor came back frm BB.....kk gtg....tata!
[im sori...i reali cant accept you...i dun wana lie to myself again...is not tat i dun give you a chance...is jux tat...i dun wana lie to myself once again...]

haiz. band yesterday still seems fine. mr ng's mood goes up and down. haiz. bad mood bahx.
he ask mi to go n find the meaning of the 'RHAPSODY'. haiz. check dictionary can le. hahaz. judith still congrats mi. hahaz.
later mi, rachel,joyce chng n yuanling went mac wif mr ha. he wan to treat us and limit us $5 each. nah. we pay on our own. hehex.
4.30. mi,joyce chng n jianxiong were dismissed. we went to Swee Lee to collect instrument. hahaz. we walk a long way. den later at around 5pm like tat we called mr ha n he say the band jux ended.hahaz.
in the end. 3 instruments are done. left wif 1 clarinet and 1 bass clarinet. the 2 instruments got problem mahz. wen we left Swee Lee. saw mr ng. he came n fetch us back to sch. on our way back, he was scolding us and ask y the instruments take so long to be done.
later, joyce n i call Swee Lee. they say they take 5-6days on a instrument. but then mr ng wan those instruments by Friday. haiz. duno wat to do. haiz. we jux hav to go another day le. haiz. scared mr ng scold. nvm. tata!

yesterday band okay. quite funi. laugh alot. hmm. mr ng got a sore thoat. den he abit bad mood. next week is the last saturday practice. sad sad. den mr tan not reali cuming to teach us. sad sad. 5-day week lorx. haiz. hate it. hate it arhx. den mr ng will satert scolding lorx. haiz. hope that mr tan can cum n teach us. haiz. arghx. gona miss saturday band practice like crazy. so have to go for saturday band practice this cuming week. haiz. hope tat it is de unforgetable one.sad sad.
[h.O.w.I.w.I.s.H.i.W.a.S.n.O.t.B.o.R.n.I.n.T.o.T.h.I.s.W.o.R.l.D]
[i.H.a.V.t.O.f.A.c.E.s.O.m.A.n.Y.d.I.f.F.I.c.U.T.i.E.s]
[Xx.m.I.s.S.i.N.g.s.O.m.E.o.N.e.xX]
[h.O.w.i.W.i.S.h.I.c.A.n.B.e.W.i.F.h.I.m]

thankiew leong hwee for lending mi the disney's greatest hits!!!!!!!!!! luv the songs so much!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!
'u be in my heart...yes u be in my heart....frm this day on.....'.....aaaaaaaahhhhhh love tat song lorx!!!!hahaz....
P.S....song ying arhx...reat well arhx.....

> To My Friends
>
>If you should die
>before me, ask if you
>could bring a friend.
>
>-- Stone Temple Pilots
>
>
>If you live to be a hundred,
>I want to live to be
>a hundred minus one day,
>so I never have to live
>without you.
>
>-- Winnie the Pooh
>
>
>
>
>True friendship is
>like sound health;
>the value of it is
>seldom known
>until it is lost.
>
>-- Charles Caleb Colton
>
>A real friend
>is one who walks in
>when the rest
>of the world walks out.
>
>
>Don't
>walk in front of me,
>I may not follow.
>Don't walk behind me,
>I may not lead.
>Walk beside me and
>be my friend.
>-- Albert Camus
>
>
>Strangers are
>just friends waiting to
>happen.
>Friends are the Bacon
>Bits in the Salad
>Bowl of Life.
>
>
>Friendship is one mind
>in two bodies.
>-- Mencius
>
>
>
>Friends are God's way of taking care of us.
>
>
>I'll lean on you and
>you lean on me and
>we'll be okay
>
>-- Dave Matthews
>
>
>
>
>If all my friends were
>to jump off a bridge,
>I wouldn't jump with them,
>I'd be at the bottom to
>catch them.
>
>
>Everyone hears
>what you say.
>Friends listen to
>what you say.
>Best friends
>listen to what you don't
>say.
>
>
>We all take different
>paths in life,
>but no matter where we go,
>we take a little of each
>other everywhere.;
>
>-- Tim McGraw
>
>
>
>My father always used
>to say that when you die,
>if you've got five real friends,
>then you've had a great life.;
>
>-- Lee Iacocca
>
>
>
>Hold a true friend with both your hands.;
>
>-- Nigerian Proverb
>
>
>
>A friend is someone who knows
>the song in your heart
>and can sing it back to you
>when you have forgotten
>the words.;
>
>-- Unknown

phew! juz cum home. went out wif song. 1 hr. hahaz. 1st time so fast go home. hmm. she got her new skates. her jie buy 4 her. so envy. hmm. went buy nail polish. haiz. not again. hehex. heading home. saw waimin n her mum. dey going on a hoilday. so good. have a safe trip to thailand!. may god bless them. hehex.tml got band. sianx. hehex. CAN BRING HORN HOME!!!. gor sae can. hehex. thanx gor!.tata.=P.

sad. boohoohoo. cried. who cares? 4get it.
yesterday band. instructer frm RI came. he was so humorous. make the whole band laugh like crazy. he was so darm cool. hmm. hahax.
2dae gor take bio exam 4 the O levels. wish him well. ytd my aunt taught him bio 4 3 hrs. i think he can score well bahx.
tata.
[h.U.r.t]
[how i wish u stop hurting mi]
[im tired]
[wat r u trying to do]

yesterday band was so fun! Songying's birthday also! hmm....hahaz....recall wat happen yesterday was so funny...i keep on laughing like siao...hahaz..
nth much...kk....tata!=P
[cheer up jie!]

pain. ouch. yesterday i fell sick. very sick. vomit. boohoohoo. have been lying on my bed all day. haiz. self practice wif liyi n songying cancelled. boohoohoo. bleahx. yeaterdae. stomache cramp de whole day. cant even walk. pain like hell. headache. gastric. later at nite c doc. doc sae gastric flu. bleahx. im sick. boohoohoo.

tuesday band quite fun. yupx. mi keep on laughing. also duno y. hahaz. love playing de saint n de city. muackx. hahaz. we got our set piece. faint arhx. difficult xia. mus practice like crazy. but den the JC part more complicated. but we have to learn duh. haiz. peng.

later going sch. got CIP at 9am. haiz. hope like wun cramp le. kk. tata.