2dae band. got a conductor frm japan cum to our skool. i 4get his name. but then he's one of the judges in SYF lor. hahaz. funi guy xia. dun reali understand him at first. den later noe lao. hahaz. mr ng bad mood lor. keep on scolding n scolding. haiz. den in the end beta le. hahaz.
learn alot of things...even so janpanese words too. hahaz. so fun. hmm. must stored everything he sae in my brains lolx.


haiz. next week i die le. so many tests lor. im getting so stress up. arghx. POA. Maths. SS. haiz. duno how to cope. im dead.


hehex. dwnload realplayer. yae! can listern le! yea!! hahaz.
tml still got drill. retake de lor. haiz. sianz. i prefer playing my horn den anthing.hahaz.
my gor L1R5 got 14 points for his O levels. haiz. he wanted to go TPJC. hmm. tml he start skool le. hahaz. hehex.

im crazy.
yes i am.
hahaz.
going swimming on a rainning day.
hahaz.
swam 26laps today.
my eyes cant tahan the pain.
4get to bring my goggles along ma.
dats y.
hahaz.
hmm.
so sianz.
so boring.
nvm.
i think i go sturie ba.
hmm.
den rest early lor.
hmm.
tml still got band
*tired*
our sound is much much more stronger than last time.
yea!!!
so hapi 4 our band.
looks i i dun need to worry nemore.
hmm.
i rest my case.
hahaz.
tml will be a bright new day.
n its time for mi to train up on my horn.
haiz.
1 year plus hornist.
dats mi.
hahaz.
wadeva.





















*_cYa tMl_*

tat funky fren of mine. shuany again. hahaz. last nite pei mi tok n we had a testi marathon. hahaz. he send mi quite a number of songs lor. i like the la cucaracha played by hia sch. he played the solos. hahaz... n also the carpenters forever by the yodogawa technical high school...Japanese Graffiti 7 and Japanese Graffiti 4....Mozart - HORN CONCERTO in Eb K 447!!!! hahaz....-> darm nice...hahaz... n he send mi one duno wad Best Yet Ever thingy..he sae tats the best playing he played..but then too bad i cant read the file lor...haiz...='<...
wadeva
now he got band exhange.
kelian him.
last friday got le.
2dae still hav another one. hahaz.

="<
im sori...
i mean no harm.....
im sori....
im sori tat i have been holding doubts against you.
im sori tat i keep on having mood swings.
im sori tat my words cause u to get so sad.
im sori tat wen im not in the good mood i keep so quiet n give u ppl a black face.
im sori tat i have been thinking alot.
im sori tat i never tell u my problems n let ur imagination went wild.
im sori tat i let u alone to think of wads reali wrg wif mi wen im in a bad mood.
im sori tat i make u cry wen i read my blog.
im sori tat i questioned you.
im sori tat i nvr tot of wad u will think 4 i alwsys think tat im always alone to clear up my problems.
im sori tat i broke your heart.
im sori tat i angry wif you.
im sori tat i keep everything to myself.
im sori tat i nvr tot of wat will you feel 4 nt telling you.
im sori tat i nvr do a part as a fren to cheer u up wen ur bad mood.
im sori for wad i have said
n im sori for everything.

my stomach haven been well.
i reali duno wad to do.
i dun dare to tell darren nor qabir nor u all.
i juz keep everything to myself.
im sori.
i reali cant take those blasting at times.
im trying to tolerate the pain wen it acts up.
it happens like not reali often la.
is like sumtimes if i reali blast too much lor.
keep it frm darren n qabir dey all k.
i dun wan them to noe.



n also dun blame everything to urself.


yes.
i hate to get angry wif ppl.
i will 4give u.
in my heart,
u r 4given.
i wun hold against you anymore.


god taught mi dis.
learn to 4give n 4get.

cheer up.
dun cry anymore k?



ok.
everything end here ok.
no more crying frm the 2 of us ok.

smile..=P

i have been toking to shaun.
shauny hamtaro lor.
yar.
he have been toking to mi.
so like i dun reali will go n think so much larx.

i duno how to sae it in front of you.
but then i choose to tel u here instead.

yes.
im angry wif u n very piss off wif your attitude.

yes.
i got alot of things i never tell you.

im sorrie but then i reali have to tell u lor.

im reali very piss off wen u tell mi that i had changed.
plz.
i never ok.
today,
u are like wanting mi to say that i change lor!
wad the!
plz lor.
i have my own principles de lor.
im not even wrg n u r forcing mi to tell u that i in the wrong.
dis make mi very piss off.



i never tell u sum problems.
is becoz.
i dun wan to add on to ur burdens lor.
think back.
rmb those times where u r very stress up?
i also have my own problems also.
this is the reason y i dun tell u.


u say that im weird recently.
is becoz.
im very stress up lor.
a cheerful person will hav his bad times.
u get it?


u ask mi to put myself in others shoes.
i did.
but then,
have you?

do u noe that how stress up i was ytd wen u tell mi that i hav changed?
u noe?

i dun noe wat have u been treating mi for.
i dun noe wad u r thinking.
but u attitude towards mi is so cold at times.
i try to step back.
did u do that wen im in a bad mood?


u sae i dao u.
u go n think carefully.
do u noe at times i reali get so fuck up wen u give mi a bu shuang face n u wan mi to give u a smily face lor.


have u been thinking wad im feeling?
have u been treating mi as a fren?






think about your attitude towards mi.
u noe how sad i feel.











i dun wish to sae anymore.







2dae band so fun. never been so hapi today. hehex.
reali have to thank shauny hamtaro wif all his craps to cheer mi up.
cya on the SWS concert!=P



good luck for ur band exchange tml!=P



*_tHaNkIeW_*
*_iM sOrI_*

now listerning to la cucaracha.
shauny's band play de.
he played the trumpet solo so darm well.
still sae nehow play de lor.
he arhx.
the running notes so fast he still can manage.
silver band.
hmm.
the saxophone the solo so nice lor.
horn sound so power!
hmm.
must must learn.




*_pIsS oFf wIf uR wOrDs_*
*_cRiEd_*

2dae got 12 peeks in my class pong school. think so. then mr ha dun wan to teach POA. Literature watch movie. mute de. hahaz. something wrg wif the sound. mrs loh give us a ws to do. within 15mins finish lao. den the rest of the time like 30mins like tat we do nth at all.
hmm. today the teachers seem so good to our class. coz we reali very tired lor. mr lian us we to run 2 rounds onli.
band ok lor. very fun. mr ng good mood. think he still very happy about our performance at the yu ying bad exchange. phew. hahaz.
my aunt went hospital. shi han's mum. im so surprised. she undergo a operation this morning. yar. now i think alrite le ba.
hmm. he ask mi to call him shauny. wadeva. juz a new fren. play trumpet de. frm St.Gabriel. hmm. funi guy.=P








*_u R sO rUdE tO hIm_*
*_tHaNkIeW fOr cHeErInG mI uP_*

*yawn*
i miss blogging. miss my computer. miss my bed. miss my HP. miss my horn. aiya. miss everything lahx! LOLX.
hmm. let us start on wad happen on monday ya.
Day 1 of Camp
went to sch us usual 2 assemble. shaw hall. then go to our camp site. at de wad MOE Labrador Adventure Centre.
hmm.
my class went skating in the morning. hahaz. one of the instructer also call darren. deborah sae y all darrens like the same de. dotx. dotx. dose hu noe how to skate went to the rock-climding place dere n skate whereas the other were at the hall. the blades so smooth to play. can turn very easily. but then went it cums to break hor. very difficult. also duno y.
then lunch. dun reali like the food. tats y i 4get le. i noe got chicken.
after lunch ish kayating. so fun. the sun so blazing hot. alot of us seasick. im in. almost vomit.
we wash the boats. paddles. tat andy almost kill mi wif the boat. the boat hit my leg. got blue-black. blahx blahx blahx. our shoes is full of water n sand. went toilet n clean. hahaz. manesh so funi. he went to the wrg toilet. galx de. den sae erm. naked small kids n think a few of my class galz haf-naked body. wen we were in the bus. he covered his face lor. he keep saying he very paiseh n his face blush like hell. hahaz. so funi.=P
went back to sch n bath. the salt n sand cut my skin alot.
dinner. the veggie yellow yellow de. yuck.
we got night activities after tat. wrap the egg n throw. de egg cannot break. or else no marks.
each class have to volunteer a guy to take off their shirt. hahaz. de prefects n the PE captains crack eggs on their shirts. *stinkco* hahaz.
another game is have to wrap two galz wif toilet paper. emilyn n wanzhen was selected. den have to run wif it. hahaz.
den ish de. watermelon thingy. our class so guai. we listern to instructions. we nvr break the 2 watermelons. hahaz. so we got 30 mrkx. 15 mrkx for 1. hehex. n we hor very neat de lehx. de other classes hor. dey mess up the whole place till very messy. we spread majong paper below the watermelon n den we smash open the watermelon n eat. hehex. so we gain alot of points frm that game 4 we listern to instructions! hahaz.
next ish de icy thingy. we have to melt the ice. 2 ices. quite big lar. dose plastic packet. hmm. we use alot of methods. like, we do sit-ups. push-ups. make ourselves very warm. den put the ice on it. so cooling. our guys very pro on that hahaz. wadeva.
lastly ish the mashmellow thingy. we hab to throw mashmellow into the mouths of the blind-folded person. hahaz. we went to eat. so nice.


wash-up time. then we went to slp. i slp on the top of the double-decker bed. i slp wif li choo. on top. so shuang. hahaz. liling slp below mi n next to her was siewhua. 2 double-decker beds was put together. echo. tats wat our rm ish called. liling the bed sheet cover is to do wif music. got scores n instruments. but then no horns n saxophones. waa! so wad lor. hahaz. reali make mi n deborah rmb that we got ban on that day. haha.
manage to slp at 1 like tat. day 1 ended.

Day 2 of Camp.
woke up at 5am becoz of the rooster. den i went to slp again n woke up at 6 like tat. went to bath. hahaz. mi hor keep on bathing. im jux so crazy. hahaz.
got so-called exercise. den devotion. breakfast. got baked beans, hard-boiled egg, milo n bread. quite ok. but then very eggy. hahaz.
den went for CRC. the rope activities. early in the morning the sun so scorching. burning hot. phew! i went for 3. complete 2. hahaz. went for the to lines n 2 wooden blocks de. im the lucky number 1. nt mentally prepared. haiz. so scary. nth to hold on. but i like the finishing part. jump dwn hahaz. 2nd i went to try the higher one. very high lor. went i look dwn, very scarey. im keep on thinking im might juz fall. hahaz. sanjoy below mi. keep on asking mi to juz go. but then very scare. in the end give up. i go n try the big loggy thingy. tat one ok lor. hahaz.
after that. went bath. hahaz. then lunch. our class is awarded wif two bottles of coke. coz mi won the games in the night activites. got lunch duty after tat.
went for the slippery slide thingy. got a series of games for that thingy. 4 lor. den like slippery slide is juz one of them. yupx.
wa. that slippery slide reali very dangerous. my class got ppl injured themselves. got blue-black. sum got cuts n brusies,etc. sum classes got ppl even sprained their ankle. i got 3 blue-blacks. *pain*
den bath again. duh!
went for the adsailing n the zipline. the flying fox lor. hahaz. darm fun. the adsailing quite scary. have to always keep my legs in a L-shaped position. i so nervous till my gloves i wear them wrg. ms nalin pull mi up. then adjest b4 i go dwn again. 2nd time ok lor. cant evn control the rope. like keep on falling. my wrist accidentally touch the metal ring. very hot. coz the friction ma. but then very fun la. =P
flying fox. zipline larz. very fun. juz jump. tat benedict hahaz. he hor bum his butt on the wooden plank. den shook the whole thingy. freak mr lian out. hahaz.
kaixiong also. but then not so serious lar. neway. that mr benedict yan, he broke a wood on the trolley. hahaz. he hor. =P
did i went to bath after tat? erm i duno la. i lost count le. i not i keep on going lor.
ms khek also sae mi. keep on going to bath. hahaz. deborah told mi. she looking for mi ma. den she ask ms khek. she told her tat i might be bathing. !!!.
dinner. hmm. duno. got chicken the drumstick. haiz. so sick of the drumstick. haha.
got campfire. ex-seniors came. we sang songs. got skit competitions. cheer competitions. so fun. we went to wash-up. the galx onli. i bath againz.the guys dun hab. then wen we galx want to slp that time, the teachers ask the galz to gather. sae got sth to tell us.
sae got 13 extra new camp t-shirts lost. as if our problem. dey juz now already check out wif the guys le. discover some. aiya. wadeva the thing ish. it's a very sad thing. dun wan to rmb.
i slept at 1am plux again. hahaz.starting 2 miss my bed. Day 2 ended.




Day 3 of camp. last day.
woke up by the rooster again. at 5am. den try to slp. coz headache. manage to nap a little. den wake up at 5plus. li chooo woke up. mi 2nd. eunice 3rd. i went to bath. hahaz.
den i went back to my rm. headache. pain. den lay my head on deborah's bed. haiz. pack my things. etc.
devotion. breakfast. class team games. got stations like, 100-sit-ups, 100 push-ups, powder on face, treasure-hunt, rock-climbing,etc.
den gather at the hall. dismiss to pack ur things. leave the place 4 sch. some of us peng at the shaw hall. tired ma. also wait for faith 3-3 n 3-2 n hope 3-2 ma. got prize-presentation.
faith 3-2 n Joy 3-1 won the amazing race n got another thingy. 4get lehx.
hope 3-1 won the cheer competition.
faith 3-1 won the skit competiton.
faith 3-1 won the team challenge also.
erm.
i think tats all bahx. shld be.
day 3 ended. hahaz



mi, waimin, siewhua n liling went to sakae sushi after tat. the 3pm buffet thingy. b4 i enter, i already feel quite full le. coz of the water lor. hahaz. hmm. we ate quite alot. mi n siewhua eat the most little thing de. so sleepy at tat time. haiz.


went to walk around. sent liling home. went to the cinema there n sit. i slp dwn dere. coz reali very tired. not enoff slp n everything. then on my way home in the bus, i slp also. wen i reach home, i peng on my bed.

nvr eat my dinner. coz reali full still. yar.


*yawn*
wrote testi 4 huiping n benazir. ppl keep coling bensazir, banana. so bad lor. hahaz.
*yawn*
gona go n pack my bag. dun feel so good on going to sch tml. so tired lor after the camp. tml still got PE. we dun even have the strength to run 4 mr lian. help us!









*_iT sEeMs tO bE aoThEr nEw dAy_*
*_rElAx_*
*_tIrEd_*

hahaz.the 9pm channel 8 show! de Ru Hua so funi lor! next week more funi! so must watch le! hahaz...XP

marmie make mi darm bloodly angry this morning lor. i also duno wad to sae lor. n i dun wan to rmb wad she had done. but then she really made mi very darm pissed off lorx.
ytd went for band exchange wif yu ying sec sch. fuchun was dere. henderson sec. anderson sec. St. Joseph. mi us!
hmm. gt to noe some peeps. evelyn. huimin. huiping. benasir. wadeva. mi n the fuchun the 1st hornist galx. erm. i 4get her name all of a sudden. duno y. we r juz so siao n crazy. hahaz. then she c mi pity she pei mi nsecond horn! hahaz. She's mine 4 the day darren! hahaz. oops. im going to wad i m ytd! oops!
hmm. then later i went to find yuchun. she resch the yu ying. then the fuchun galz went back to 1st horn. *arbish*
after a while. benasir n huimin tell mi tat yuchun crying. wa! wen i ask her whether she cry. he tears jux gust out lor. so scary. den the 3 of us bring her to the toilet. haiz. she cry coz her dardie went back to china. *pity* hav to out ourselves in her shoes. haiz. she cant get to see her parents everytime. poor thing.

Break time.
sections sit together wif each other. darren n qabir do the hugs the adam koo taught them. *peng* duno y all the sec4s after the workshop all like tat. hahaz. so funi. hmm. our band ish the 1st band to perform. hahaz. our sound is good on that day. so happy. no regrets! hehex. yae!
fuchun rawks man! their sound so darm power! their band onli got 10 ppl or less lor. n the sound is like one band sound! 1 horn. 1 trumpet. 1 tenor saxophone. 2 clarinets. 1 flute. 2 percussion. 1 tuba. i think like tat ba. they played persis. so gooooooooddddd! can go competition lehx. hahaz. reali lorx. im so impressed! esp the tenor saxophone n the trumpet. waa!!! hahaz. wen they finished playing, everyone was like standing up..prasing them. wa!!!XP
Waa wan to hear them play again!



wen we leave the sch. the yu ying band members was like at the sch exit there. waving to us bye! so funi lor. hahaz.


went out wif waimin n songying to buy camp things. hmm. terribly bad moood. dun ask why. i wun sae de. ="<
reali sori abot my attitude towards song n wamin. im wrg. sori. haiz. mood swing bahx. maybe sick n tired pluz periods. haiz. hate it.

tml sec3 camp le. no mood. duno why. tml ms khek sae we doing kayaking leh! hahaz. im fav sport game of all. maybe tat will cheer mi up.
haiz. gona miss my mattress. bear. horn. mt seniors. cutiee sec 1s.hahaz.everyone. haiz. 3days 2 nitex. hmm. i haven even pack my things yet. very lazy. hahaz. kk. ggtg le. tata!=P









*_gOnA mIsS_*
*_dUn wAn iT tO hApPeN_*
*_aIyA-wUn lIkE u dE_*

my leg so pian. sprain. got around 45 mins of massage. so pain. OUch! but at least now beta lehx. got abit swollen. haiz. saturday got band exchange. lookin forward!=P

*_oUr bRaIn iS nOt lIkE a cOmPuTeR_*
*_u cAnT dElEtE tHiNgS iMmEdIaTeLy_*
*_iT tAkEs tImE_*

juz now went swimming again. 20 laps. duno y i darm bad mood these few days lor. so darm stress up wif so much things. haiz. tml got chinses test. i very scared. tu lao shi sae very difficult lor. then the chinses characters so difficult to memorize. haiz. im doom! god plz help mi!
haiz. my face will be darm black these few days. haiz. juz dun wan to tok. juz dun feel like. so i think i shld sae sorri to my frens 1st. or else the will be mad at mi. haiz. i will try to stay cheerful lar.

*_sTrEsS_*

so ccccccoooooolllllllddddddd!
*sniff*....having a fever now....so cold...
how to go sch tml?
how to go band tml?
pia lorx.

i think i make the right choice.
sori for lying to you.
u force mi to.
i already told u my ans.
yet u refused to listern.
so in the end,
my ans is always the name,
"no"


im so suprised that u col mi today.
after so long that u nvr col,
i noe that god is granting my wish,
"stay away frm mi"
yet in the end,
u still col mi.
"no" is wad i said.
"bye" ish wad i hear frm you.
becoz tml is valentine's.
dats the reason u col. but sori.
my ans is still a "no"
sori eldrin.














*_rElIvEd_*
*_dUn EvA cOl aGaIn_*

juz came back frm swimming again! hahaz. so hungry! hahaz. swam 20laps coz no time. the swimming complex have to close le. haiz. nvm. if got free time then go again. hmm.
ytd. i go home very late so no time to blog. kk. now i blog.
hmm. my aunt hse was so darm nice lor! so spacious! the balcony so big. then can stand dwn dere n look at the sea. so gd lorx. 19th floor. so high. hahaz. my dardie very scared of heights. he almost freak off wen he noe that my aunt hse is that high.=P
we had buffet. the food..erm no comments. hahaz. so-so lor. can eat can leh. we played wif our little cousinx. they so cute. then after that we go to our family frens hse.
on our way there, that driver drove us to tampiness street 43 instead of 73 lor! my dardie cery angry. coz like the driver toking on the phone ma. then nvr listern properly lor.
hmm. go to my family fren hse watch tv. got 2 tables of majong table. so tempting. then after watching the my fair princness III, the girls went dwn to play fire crackers..*lame*
i went to find rachel. coz reali very sianz. then we chatted under her hse block till around 10pm like that.hahaz. wen i go there that time. quite scarey lor. i got lost in the neighbourhood. hahaz. so funi lor. i walk in circles. LOLX
go back to the hse. i ly on her daughter's bed. n soon fell asleep. den after that followed by my gor n shihan. my gor fell sick. got fever. den the 3 of us slept on the bed.
1.20pm like that, my family go home 1st. coz my dardie dun wan to play le. *yawn*





today. i went out wif my da sao. hahaz. erm...oOpSs! hahaz. my marmie fren the daughter larx.
hmm. we went around looking for gifts 4 valentine's day tml lorx. n guess wad? we settle everything in the "Gift A Name" shop!=P
coz we reali ran out of ideas to wad to buy lor. she even bought a gift 4 my brother lor..LOLX


hmm..this is wad i buy...
-judith...a bear wif her name on it..
-songying...a necklace...a bracelet..
-liyi...a necklance of her choice...
-waimin...ring..bu yao xiang "Y"...she wan de...
-bella...darren...jainxiong...their name on the keychainx...


hmm...think thats about it bahx...

we took neoprints..went V8 cafe n eat...so nice!


yupx..after that i went to my dardie de godma's hse. visit her n tok lor. hahaz. n mi n my gor got a $50 angpao each frm her! hahaz.. gona save up the $$ for my assignments..hahaz...



go shihan's hse again. coz her marmie cook dinner. eat the duno wad erm..loks like shark fin thingy lar. yar. eat the thing onli den weent swimming wif shiyin around 8.10pm like that lor...



haiz.
bbllluuurrrr...
so cold...im sitting under the aircon n fan...think gona have fever le...haiz..







*_dErE iS nO rEaSoN 4 mI tO bE bRaVe_*
*_sWiMmInG_*

waa! my twin uncles so funi lor! coz i call them sae my computer got sth wrg ma. den they sae on saturday n sunday then they cum n repair. but then suddenly at about 9pluz like that ytd, they pop at my place lor. wearing same green colour t-shirts xia! hahaz. so funi.
my marmie was like "i tot u cuming tml or sunday?"
hahaz. they duno y lar. so gang chong. hahaz.
but then hor. my pc still got abit problem lor. is like cant do this n cant do that. onli like blogger lar.etc can onli. others like mails or wadeva cannot lor. haiz. my computer arhx. dun keep on creating problems to mi lehx! haiz
















*_fEeLiNg sO nUmD_*
*_lOsInG tHe sEnSe oF yOu_*

today 4 mrs kaan's literature class. we watch a movie called 'The Choir Boys'.
so nice to watch lor. but then the boys in the school were reali darm naughty. they got a new superviser. called clement mattheu. yar. he is the one suggesting to organize a chior. then i think he makes the students into a mush beta students. yar. there's a guy, small kid, he so cute. becoz he dun noe any songs. he is the asst-conductor helper or sumthing. help the condutor to take his bacton or sth. hahaz. their singing was so impressive! got one guy is at last then he join the chior. he's singing was so darm great! he sang solos. at the S. waaa!!! i wan to watch the movie lehx. coz we onli see have way duh! nvm. i will take a lookout on th vcd or sth.






in the end. the little boy ask his fren this...
so cuuutiiieee!!!

"Are u my fren?"
"yes,why?"
"wad is 5+3?"
"53"
"sure?"
"yes"



hahaz...the way the little kid sae was so darm cute! hahaz.

haiz. duno wad happen to my cpmputer lor. is like. i cant resd my emails. cant play sum of the internet games lor. duno wad is blocking my way! wad debug! wad the hell ish that. nvm. i col my uncle later on. hmm.
2dae. haiz. went general office to lokk 4 my file. mrs cheng answered mi. haiz. she like. wa. u r band file also can lose it. haiz. duno la. so luan lor. den ltr i went to look 4 ms johnson. she sae no1 returned the file to her as well. haiz. so darm unlucky lor.
after sch i open up the band rm n take darren n qabir file to photocopy lor. haiz. huili came back to the sch. think to find ms johson n chat. she also like scold mi 4 losing my file. >.<
hmm. god! where the hell is my file! can u tell mi where is it? amen.
we chatted. till she wan to go. sent her to the main gate n go back to the band rm.
waited for waimin to come. mi n songying dwn there waiting 4 her. hmm. den like 3 like that she came n we go to bugis the food court there n eat lor.
after that we took neoprint. the flipping thingy. quite fun lar. den saw my cousin, shihan dere too. hehex. she n her fren lor. we took the same machine. hehx.
















*_gLaD_*
*_hAd fUn tOdAe_*
*_mIsS_*

hmm. so full still. haiz. jux now wen duno wad jin besar for dinner. horne road. wadeva. the place very ulu. hahaz. wadeva.
my 2 nephew so cute. hahaz. the younger one very bad lor. dun wan mi to carry. so bad lor. then the plumper one wans everyone to carry or else he will cry. hahaz. the thinner wan so funi. ppl give him angpow he went to bite. then my cousin->his marmie la..went to pull out the angpow frm his mouth. n he cried lor. his lips so red. hahaz. keep on crying. then his maid give him his milk bottle. give a sulking face. hahaz. he 2dae bad mood la. think so. baby blues. *lame*
the plumper one. hahaz. jump here n there. like siao. sent all the ppl dere laugh like hell. he 4 nth laugh n laugh n laugh. mad. hahaz.
hmm. the food seems ok. i like the veggie. so nice. hahaz.


tml sch lehx. i still never do. literature. aiya. duno la. tml mrs kaan sae wan to let our lit. class to watch movie. yeah. =P.

im listerning to canto song now.unbelieveable. i also duno y got this song. its called "i wana be".

haiz. gtg. so sianz. will be online till 12am. yupx. or even much more later.












*_i jUz wAnA bE aLoNe n TiNk_*
*_sHuTuP_*
*_vErY pIsS oFf_*
*_sOrI_*

*_\"fEelInG uNsEcUrE oF mYsElF..wAnA kEeP eVeRyThInG aLl tO mYsElF..i dUnO wHy aLsO..sO sTrEsS.."/_*


y?



*_cAnT tAkE iT_*

haiz. now listerning to part of the reason. coz it's onli a preview. so. yupx. its nice. then now nehow click here n there. so sianz lor. haiz. now go n find sum chinses songs. hmm. so sianz.
gona do my homework le. or else i die. hmm. doing sum research to do my SS. haiz.
where's my file!!!!
haiz.



















*_dReAmInG_*
*_bRoKeN-hEaRtEd_*

*yawn*
so sick n tired.
played wif my little cousins n nephew. hahaz. they so cute. ok lar. this tear quite ok lor. onli my aunt like to touch mt waist. !!!. hahaz. wad eva.
hmm. tml still have to go out. haiz. i wan to do my homework also cannot. later friday go sch mrs lee fan lan scold n scold n scold. have to read ahead lor. n present. haiz. reali hate her. but then i dun hate the subject lar. so fun lor. hahaz.
chinese new year this year. not reali as fun as any of the past years. maybe becoz my father n mother side still got little kids ba. den very sianx lor. esp my marmie side de. got alot of toddlers. so quite ma fan. sum more it looks like nu ren guo. hahaz. filled wif gals n galx n gals. hahaz.
hmm. actually wana play majong de. den the adults took away the table frm us. so in the end we play poker cards. shiyin lost until quite jialet lar.
sianz.
















*_bRoKeN-hEaRtEd_*
*_rEaSoN_*

hehex. im back here again. hmm. juz came back frm visiting my grandma n uncle's hse. later have to go to shihan's hse! yea! hahaz.
im trying my very best to smile n smile n smile. haiz. but in the end. i juz. hmm. smile a tiny winne beat. haiz.
eat alot of tibits. not reali alot. haiz. must cut down le. or else i gain xia. hmm.
wen i reach home that time. saw siewhua n her family. hmm. so surprised. hehex.
*yawn* so tired. dun reali like chinses new year. hahaz. tml still have to go 4 father's side e reuion dinner. sianz. haiz. my file arh! haiz. sad sad.





















*_tHiNkInG oF yOu_*
*_fAlLeN pUzZlE_*
*_bRoKeN_*

HAPI CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!!!=p
hehex...today new year le...but then i dun reali have the mood to go n visits my relatives. becoz of my missing file..haiz. hope to find it soon.
kk. gtg n prepared myself le..blog later..
buaix...
















*_mIsSiNg tHe SiGhT oF yOu_*
*_sAd_*

happy chinese new year eve!!! =P
hehex...
juz came back frm my grandma's hse. reuion dinner. yupx. steamboat. make my stomach very uneasy now. hmm. but then collect ang paos le. hahaz. kind of 2pit here. wadeva.
gona help my dear cousin shi han to do her blog. hehex.
yea! shiyin now sending taufik's I dream to mi!! kk. gtg le.. tag later!








*_mIsS yOu_*

i lost my file...i lost my file...="<
haiz...juz hope that if neone found my file plz kindly return to the general office or give to ms johnson lor!!...
if reali gone...haiz...i go n photocopy again lor. i already col darren n qabir to lend mi their files on monday. haiz.
today for the CNY performance...we played A Chinese New Year Story lor n The Saint And The City. we played quite bad lor. sure kana scolding on the next band practice.
After the performance, went out wif waimin n liyi. den on our way to bugis, saw wan ning n hannah. they join us n we went bugis together lor.
went deli. after that hannah n wan ning wan to take neoprint wif mi. den take lor.
later they went home n mi waimin n liyi continue to shop. i but valentine times day present for them lor..as well as my own one..hehex...waimin songying n liyi i buy le...the rest i have to rake my brains to think of wat they wan lor..haiz...










*_??/tHinKiN oF yOu??\_*





*_hOpE tO fInD mY fIlE_*

I DREAM

Verse 1:
In my mind
I can climb
All the mountains that surround me
My spirit's there, where eagles dare to fly

In my heart
There's a spark
That can light the world around me
An open door, where I am sure dreams are

Bridge 1:
It doesn't matter if I win
Or the colour of my skin
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

Chorus 1:
And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream, I dream

Verse 2:
If there's a time
In your life
When the odds are so against you
There's no defeat, if all you keep is pride
First or last
Slow or fast
There's a dignity that makes you
Keep driving on, when worlds have come apart

Bridge 2:
It doesn't matter rich or poor
Or the things you've done before
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself

Chorus 2:
And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream, I dream

Middle 8:
I dream
Of a moment
That forever will be golden
When the torch is passed
Only dreams will last
That are shared by everyone

Chorus 3 & 4:
And I dream
I can run
Like the wind
And be strong
When my heart just wants to give in
I dream
I can be
The hero that's in me
When I dream, I dream







*_lUv dIs sOnG_*
*_tAUfIk rAwKx_*

yea!!!i scored full marks for my POA test!!! 20/20!!!! hehex..so hapi...but then hor...i flunk my geo...hahaz..4eva the la..got 3/10...waimin got 2/10...haiz...have to buck up alot le...
2dae band quite ok. mr ng mood swing lor. at 1st ok de. den in the end quite bad mood. hmm. at 1st we had to sit under the blazing sun to play our instruments lor. darm bloodly hot lor. haiz. den later we went outside the band rm to set up n practise there lor. ok la.
ms johnson bought reeds again n 10 tuner. haiz. den have to do all the same stuffs again lorx.haiz. quite fun lar 2dae. hahaz.
tat boon kai. i sure tml go n bash him up!!! he step on my uniform lor. make mi kana scolding frm my mum 4 my dirty uniforn n bag lor. kau! after band was like running here n there to so called 'catch him'lor. he keep on kicking my bag. den throw my POA book lor! agrhx!












*_mIsSiNg_*
*_fAlLeN tEarS_*
*_nEvEr dRy_*

went swimming wif shiyin, xiupei n xuici. 12pm. sun so blazing hot. but hu cares. hahaz. so fun lor. swam 20laps. now my skin like abit burn burn. duno lar. my cheeks darm bloody cherry. hahaz. i wan to go swimming tml again.
tml got chinese new year rehearsal. haiz. we playing the chinese new year story n the saint n the city.hmm.
juz now gor play maple story. hahaz. so funi. the piggy n the mushrms so cute. hahaz. wan to play but then dun dare to coz that account my gor playing does not belongs to my gor lor. ish his fren de. yupx. cant register coz the acoount is full. have to wait lor. hahaz. hmm.














totally miss.







wan self-study...







*_miSs yOu_*

no use crying...
hmm...
wadeva...


ytd. went out wif liyi to bugis. walk n walk n walk. tok n tok n tok. hahaz. coz after 6 tests. mi feeling so darm stress up. den go bugis to unwind. or else i reali can get mad. haiz. mon still got one physic test before new year. haiz. stress ahx!
we went to take neoprint. my treat.=P hehex. coz nvr treat liyi before. den we went deli to eat. my treat again! hahaz. =P. luv treating my best fren lots! hahaz. dats mi!


2dae.do drill.hahaz.mixture of tirness n happiness.???.den after that went lunch wif songying judith liyi n waimin at singapore post.meet darren n jianxiong dere. hmm. juz a normal dae today.

my com ok le. my cousin hug back my com ytd n repair, change the whole things lor. yar. den juz noe juz bring it back.

tml going swimming. wif shiyin. haiz. hope can get tanned. hahaz. wadeva.i jux cant get tanned lor. my skin is juz naturally juz pale. duh! like ghost. marmie grumble sae wad galz skin so dark 4 wad. pale nicer ma. hahaz. old way of thinking lor! hahaz.







feeling much beta now. at least now he wun col mi. hmm. thank you lord.






sorie eldrin..




wadeva...








now helping my gor to download maple story...
20parts in all...
the game looks fun...
hahaz....
*yawn*

*_hApI bUrFdAe gRaNdPa_*

2dae band ok lor. mr ng not reali that in a bad mood.hmm. im waiting for saturday to cum. coz can start using my broadband le. hehehex! yeah! the modam in my rm very tempting. hahaz. hmm. let mi wait. den can start to dwnload things le! yeah! hahaz.
mi so darm siao 2dae.
haiz. yuchun nvr go band today. haiz. i duno wad the hell is she thinking. fine. she wan to cum, cum. if she dun wan to cum, she beta tell mi the reason. or else i dun care le.haiz. duno la. everytime she nvr cum will bored my mood dwn. so. i duno. haiz.
tml got lit test n compo test. *yawn* so tired. later i go n sturdie. hehex.=P
















*_aLwaYs tHe sAmE eNdInG_*
*_rELuClAnT_*










dun act in front of mi..





i wun give it a darm...




i wun be hurt by u..



never!


stop ur act can?







im tired....

haiz. ytd dardie's burfdae n huili's burfdae if im not wrg ba. hehex.=P
mr ng monday band that time throw out trombones, percussion n tuba de scores lor. duno y. den ask mi to help him throw lor wen i go band. sae our band look like rubbish dump. plz lor. he also got contribute to the 'rubbish' lor. nvm.
band reali feels like hell on monday lor. mr ng keep on picking on the 2 majors as well as the senior mento. then i think sanjoy cry ba. mi quite bad mood also den play haf way gastric pain act up. pain like hell. then i shed tears but no one see. phew! den after band mr ng wan commettiee meeting. then he tok n tok n tok. telling us wad he wan to see on thursdae. clear band rm. sweep the floor. clear the cupboards. so on n so for. den mi judith darren n jianxiong go band ytd to clear up the band rm lor. waimin n song also dere. mi n judith clear n sweep the rm n sum stuffs lor. den the 2gugs clear the intruments thingy. clear until quite late. actually i wan to go off at 4pm one lor. to go home n revise SS test de. den haven clear finish. den held up the time longer lor. reach home around 6plus7pm lor. haiz. den i so darm tired till i fell asleep on my sofa. so shiock hahaz. 1hr later wake up le. lucky nvr slp walk. hahaz.
2dae. hmm. got SS test. hai hao la. no time to finish lor. so points nvr write in. hahaz. nvm. its over. phew!=P
went for sectional. the band rm looks more neater den b4. hope that the band members wun make it messy againz. haiz. mi go sectional but then nvr go n touch my horn. hahaz. itzit counted as a sectional??...crap crap crap. mi do my SS hw. waimin complain my words darm small. squeezing 3 lines in one line. hahz. cannot mehx. aiya. mr lee sure scold mi 4 my small handwriting one day. i can assure u that it will be this friday. hahaz. one leg put in the coffin. hahaz. lame.
hmm. den help to packed up again. in the end mi n jaslin->sanjoy's sister, playwif the straws judith found in the cupboard. ya! ytd went we clear up the band rm that time, we found our old seniors' photos! hahaz. so funi.
hmm. mi n jaslin went to use the straws to make hearts.interesting manx. hahaz. den she duno how to do ma. den she sae she connect the straws together lor. hahaz. she so cute n funi. hehex..(",)..
den i went to clear up againx. arrange the hard stands n chairs neatly for the sec 1s tml. den i went outside to look for mr ha to teach mi POA. coz tml got POA test mahz. plus he sae he will teach mi de mahx. today no POA yet i still the materials lor. hmm. i guai hor..hahax..BHB!*arbish mi*_*ouch*..hahaz.
den we tok to mr ha outside. till in the end left wif mi n rachel toking to mr ha. so funi lor. hahaz. mr ha so funi xia. but then hor. i feel like arbish him juz nw. fine.
den wen rachel went home. i went back band rm mahz. coz mr ha sae very late le. he wan to clase the band rm ma.song n waimin listern to walkman n darren judith practice their instruments lor. jianxiong dwn dere slping. so noisy he still can slp. pro xia. hahz. wadeva.
hmm. so darm stress up wif band n sturdies n alot of tests!!!!!kau! haiz. sianz. haiz. gor sleep le. dardie watching tv. haiz. so bored. so bored. 2dae got so many peeps online. now starting to decrease le. haiz. maybe they go n slp le bahx. tml i can slp early but then i choose to go online. so bad hoe mi. got a chance 4 mi to reat well i dun appreciate lor. haiz. wadevaz...








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moody...y?
duno...
juz feel like keeping everything to myself today...
feeling a little insecure wif myself....