cum online sercetly. juz to tok to frenx. hahaz. i very bad hor. gor tml got 0 level chinese. he wana retake. hope he can get A1. hope tat god will guide him all the way.
haiz. so bored wen it cums to hoildays. i rather go to sch. so bored at home. cant play horn for 2 weeks. coz gor exam. haiz. onli can sturdie. haiz.
[wen we were together, u held mi so tightly. i never meant to hurt you..]
[wen we two parted in silence, i noe how lonely life can be..but wen de love is gone..no point searching it back..it dun worth any nostalgia...]
[my heart is lost...wat should i do]
[L.P=???]
hapi birthday emmeline!=P
gor, gd luck 4 your 0 levels tml!=P

my results r out on thursday.
sux like hell.
deprove alot.
duno wat the hell happen to mi.
going faith 3-4 next year.
nvm.
taking POA.
sumthing challenging.
i dun mind it at all.
i promise to do well.
hehex.

tuesday band.
stocktake at 8am.
den sec1 pal meeting at 10am.



wednesday.
ghee! wash instruments!
fun!=P


friday.
last day of school.
so sad.
='<
haiz.
gona miss so many peeks out dere.
looking forward to band chalet at downtown east!
gona miss tuesday band.




ok....cum to saturday.....which ish today....
hmm.
band sounded quite strong.
so how enthu also.
mr tan bring horn n trumpet section down to canteen 4 sectional.
quite scared.
coz cant reached so notes.
he got patience.
so in the end not scared lehx.
hehex.
band today very fun.
hehex.













sad sad.
jie n fren sad.
haiz.
hope fren dun cry le.
god plz watch over them.





tata.









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boohoohoo.
my mood goes with the weather.
sad.
cried.
arghx.
cinese teacher lecture my class today.
den carry on wif the lesson.
maths & science fair.
interesting, fun, enjoyable.
recess.
discuss abot the stocktaking.
went up to shaw hall 4 the anti-drug thingy.
the performance was interesting.
love the rap.
cool.
cried.
boohoohoo.
reason?
sad.
moody.
???
i duno why.
boohoohoo.
later sec3s came to join the sec2s.
got the combined hum quiz.
fun.
everyone so enthu.
hahaz.
F2-2 emerged 1st.
F3-1 emerged 2nd.
F3-2 emerged 3rd.
F2-1 emerged 4th.
happy ending.





dis is wat happen today.
nth much to say.
boohoohoo.
boring.
tired.
*yawn*
tml got band at 10am.
wan to go beach before that.
need peace n quiet.
need to think.






tata.

yesterday band. mr ng not happy at first. yelled. 35 of us came over 57. boohoohoo. haiz. sounded quite alrite. later. haiz.
duno wat to say. band ok lorx. mr tan n mr 'famin' came lorx. haiz. mr ng mood goes up n dwn.
last nite thought alot of things. den force myself to slp early. darn tired also. 4get put my mouthpiece back into my horn case. tues got band. starting at 10am. mr ng cum b4 1am. haiz. it gona be tiring. boohoohoo. hav to remind myself tml to bring my mouthpiece. sianx.
draw the competition drawing haf way. marmie again so n helkp mi look 4 pictures frm the book. haiz. she reali wan mi to join. cant let her down. haiz. draw haf way le. haiz. gona continue. gtg tata.
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sad. wish that im dead. rose up to heaven. enjoy the time wif god.
i wan to slp. a very long 1. totally sick n tired. darm sick. duno wat happen to mi. go band or not...i reali duno...should i?...

lost 4kg after exams. boohoohoo. bleahx. stress ended. but still stress. bwt my eyes there darm pain today.*pain* duno wat the hell happen to mi.
2dae spend the whole day at shaw hall. butt hurts.
inter-class debate. faith 2-1 won. hapi. very funi. hahaz.
MT programme...fine...quite interesting... Leadership Programme...learn alot of things...
went out wif songying to get her stuffs. walk here n there looking 4 wat she wans. saw letty n her mum. letty got her new haircut. darm nice. *envy* her mum very cartoon...hehex...
marmie so good to mi. 1st time eva she gav mi so much freedom. she never complain abot mi going out wif my frens so long. she noes tat im stress n i need break. thankiew mum. but in my heart i still got alot of things never tell her. scared she worry. dun wan her to worry. i will try to manage my own problems. hapi tat marmie care so much 4 mi. luv marmie.
marmie wan mi to take part in the postcard design competition. she's gona help mi. she now dun mind mi playing my horn 4 long hours.
very touch. my marmie went to my neighbour's house to ask 4 pictures on the competition. she reali wan mi to participate. okiex. i will do it. i wan marmie to be hapi.=P.
band starts tml...
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friday band cancelled...duno why....
went out wif song ying...to bugis....ate...took neoprints...have fun....den went heeren...looking 4 clothes...walk around the place searching n searching....hahaz...
den wan to walk to taka tat time...saw kelly, Zodiacladies ambassador...held us up...sae give her 5 mins den in the end haf an hr...she tell us about the club...n alot of things...den keep on asking we all to join....nah not interested...
went taka...search 4 clothes again...den later we sort of wan to go back to heeren tat time...saw her again....*peng*..she gave us her hp number den ahe ask 4 mine..*peng*....den songying bought a skirt at the 77th street....ok...den we walk home tat time...saw her again....*peng*....haiz...den ask we to join again....haiz.....the wed site ish-->http://www.zodiacladies.com/
[P.S.SONGYING!!!SUNSHINE GAL WORLX!!!=P]
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[gorx....good luck 4 your 0 levels science pratical exams!]

stress. sick. gastric acting up almost every single day. no appettie. maybe coz stress. duno. bleahx. coffee rawkx. hehex. back on de chair. studie.
band starting next fri. scared. duno how to play horn. stress.
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bleahx. mugging on textbooks. whole entire week. stress. soon be over. haix.
think. cried. sick. coffee. medicine. bleahx.
i cant promise myself not to think anymore. hu can help mi. bleahx.
strive hard. sleepless nitex. scared. duino how to face tml.
[i rather stress myself den to think too much]
[life is a race]
[L.P=65%]

STRESS AHX!!!!!arghx....totally freak out....finally break down on tuesday....cried on the phone wen jie col mi.....
tuesday history paper....easy...i noe how to do but scared i fail...i very stress...tat previous nite i study till 2am...head spinning like siao...but but the last 2 chapters dun reali understand...den try to mermorize so facts...riots sences..etc....den i fell asleep....den have my dreams...but den suddenly feel like someone was like on mi....n a hand is pressing my throat hard till i cant breathe....i struggle n shouted...but my voice was muted....keep on struggling till i woke up...onli haf an hour pass....cant get to slp....very scared...den im awake till 3plus am...
told my mum de next morining....i think this happen coz maybe i stress bahx....den my mum thinks so....haiz...since last thursday onwards...i everyday slept at 2plus 3am like tat...coz very scared of final examz de...n sec2 year can sae as important as the O levels lorx....yarx....i hope i can score well...or else hor i duno wat im gona do lorz....
den frm tat day onwards rite...i totally like cant forcus on my studies lorz...but i den i tried hard....lucky can....yesterday geo paper...think can pass den canot pass duno lahx....hope can....den today's literature!!!very hapi coz quite of easy....yeah!!!!...but hor study so much hor....waste my time study....study till 3am lorx...den aiyo...all study onli the one i dun reali go n spent so much time on de cum out....but den tat one essay mahx....i wrote 1 full page.....hehex....
tml science paper!!!!very scared....later have to go study....for science rite...im prepared....but den have to learn all the terms n facts....etc....later go mermorized.....hehex!!.....
[s.T.r.E.s.S]
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[s.C.a.R.e.D]
[L.P=65%]
[i promise myself to let go...i hav done it...]

after bath...no one at home....yesterday's eng paper 1...so so lorz....newspaper article abot the olympic de....den i use shyam as de altheic....hahaz...den 4 the comp writing a write the Lonely Galz....hehex....
Paper 2 darm difficult....the passage easy but the summary carry 20 marks!!! n i thought is 10 marks lorz....if u fail summary....u prepare to fail de whole paper le....haiz....so scared....
juz now gor n marmie qurrall....my gor wana go poly but my marmie keep asking him to go JC....haiz...she sae my gor can go..haiz....duno wat the 2 of them thinking lolx.....
[s.T.r.E.s.S]
[c.O.f.F.e.E.r.A.w.K.S.o.N]
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[thinking tat so much suffering is not worth it...rather to 4get it now..but CAN I DO IT???]

haiz....tml english paper...scared like hell...wana cry but cannot...promise jiejie dun cry anymore le....sick here....nose n eyes very de pain....bed n my bear so tempting....but duno how to go n slp....exams r juz freaking mi out...arghx...
duno y everyone got de mood to slp....im jealous over here....haiz....juz sad sad sad....stress stress stress....arghx...
dun feel like doing the paper tml.....but have to tell myself to do it....hen xin ku le....aaahhhhh!!!.....compo no ling gan....compre scared dun understand....i hope the paper will be easy...arghx...hope god will guide mi....very scared...freaking hell....arghx...
haiz...4get how to buzz my lips...4get how to play horn.....my mind is juz full of studies studies n studies...totally 4get the fingserings of the horn....c how i die....have to ask my jie...coz got teach her how to play last time....i hor haiz....everytime mix the fingering wif trumpet de....hahaz...duno y....ask yu chun to return mi my fingering chart...after exams go c c againz....haiz.....
gor gor ask mi to relax.....but still very tense up.....nw he slping like a log....so envy...duno how to slp.....hey! ppl out dere! can teach mi how to slp? i need help here!!!...
haiz....sighx...
Friday: English Paper 1 & 2
Monday: Chinese Paper 1 & 2
Tuesday: History
Wednesday: Geography
Thursday: Literture
Friday: Science
Monday: Maths Paper 1 & 2
Tuesday: Home Economics & Design n Technology
Wednesday: Art
haix....very scared...die die.....









[s.T.r.e.S.s]
[l.I.v.I.n.G.i.N.a.f.R.e.A.k.i.N.h.E.l.L]
[s.A.d]
[c.O.n.C.e.N.t.R.a.T.i.N.g]
[L.P=75%]
[i am a floating log in the ocean, duno where to float to...concious abot de time im left wif...cant put mi to slp...stress is pulling mi slowly...it's now part of a burden...shoulding behind mi...]
[im left...fighting against the pain im taking each day...things doesnt seems perfet...everything is in the past..like a plate of overnight leftovers, nothing worth any nostalgia...so why letting it slice my heart bit by bit in silence?]
[though life iszit perfect...my life still have to carry on...]

haiz...den stress n tired...these few days slp very late....abot 2-3am like tat....haiz....darren's birthday today.....erm...got 2nd in class 4 my Chinese CA....scared marmie nt hapi....dun dare sae my marks to her....yupx....den my health condition is like sick sick recover recover like tat....can juz breakdown.....hmm....tired...cancelled 2tion...coz got sceince test tml....80 MCQ QUESTIONS!!!...noe nth at all...stress manz....
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hmm...my com hor...duno iszit kana virses again or wat lorz...cum online that time like very scary like tat...hahaz....hmm....juz now rest 4 15mins...actually very tired de....i still wana slp but cannot la...have to study...or else no time le....drinking cold cold coffee....haiz...sianz...now cum online n relax abit....haiz.....very darn stress....haiz...lucky no test....not like my jiejie(R)...tml got physic test...so kelian....have to study den no time to prepare other subjects....:'(...hmm....she drinking coffee now i juz coz sms her she sae she still got one more chapter to learn....haiz....
today i almost cried in class....becoz of sumthing...my jiejie should noe...lucky got cheered up wif my results....chinese letter writing got 75%....then geo test got 17/20...1st time past my geo in sec2...contented le....thank god...god reali will help u de...so have to pray pray.....reali thank god 4 helping mi....so i have to buck up!....haiz...so sianz...mi nw blur blur....my eyes very tired...haiz....wan to die like tat....hmm....later revise science...den do abit of art....hmm....
my dardie cum home le...all de others peng le...nw dardie ask mi where is the remote control.....haiz...yar...hapi 4 my gorgor...he got A1 for both his A maths n E maths....i wonder how he can manage lorx...look at the paper u gong le...hapi for him but he very wat lorz...he keep on saying he wana go Poly...2 mi...if he thinks tats beta...go ahead lorz...but my marmie like sad sad lorz....=(..haiz...duno larz....my gor sae he wana go Singapore Poly....take the life science course....yupx....hope tat he can do it larx....worried 4 him also....hmm....haiz...i think i go n study le larx...haiz.....
[s.T.r.E.s.S]
[c.R.i.E.d]
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haiz....waited 4 so long....till my white hair cum out.....finally my com ok le....phew....haiz....waited like crazy...phew.....finally can cum online....phew!......stress xia....this cuming friday exam le.....haiz....c how i die....
OH LORD! U GONA HELP MI N GUDIE MI PLZZZ!!!!I DUN HAVE ANY CONFIDENCE IN MY EXAMS!!!!I REALI WANA SCORED WELL!!!!PLZZZ....HELP MI!!!!!,amen.....:'<
[m.Y.h.E.a.R.t.t.O.t.A.l.L.y.B.r.E.a.R.k.D.o.W.n]
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hmm...now i at library...doing my art stuffs...haiz...do all my drawing dere...hmm....2day shikin's birthday...hehex....hope she will like the present mi n rachel get 4 her...hmm....haiz....getting bored wif the drawing....hmm....sianz...
realli hope that the exams will end soon....have been staying up so late to do my revision.....very de stress....den keep on drinking coffee....then the next day headache or feel like puking..=(...haiz...
my com still haven repair yet....so sad...haiz....so long never go online le....haiz....onli can cum library 2 do my research or go waimin's hse to go online....haiz....so sianx....miss my com so much....duno wan it will be ok....='<...
kk...got to continue wif my drawing le....haiz....end here,....
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