went packing at at 9am today.
mi n joyce were there at first.
then after that yuanling n shikin cum.
today got ppl cum n take sum old instruments away.
packed till rougly 1pm bahx.
duno y ms johnson dun wan to discard those broken stands away and the vaccum cleaner.
those seems to be trash.
wadeva.

tml think going kim seng band wif shikin n nadia ba.
tml no tution ma.
plus nth to do.
mood swing lor.
marmie think i shld go n relax myself abit.
maybe sit there and hear them play.
or else next time wan to go.
no chance liao.
7am must go liao.
so early lor.
haiz.

monday pack up again.
tues transfer liao.
then also must go.
very tiring.
got so much things to pack n only 4 helping.


haiz.
while doing all those packing,
saw one whole stack of photo albums.
band photos since 1995 till 2000 or 2001 onli.
they seems to be so united and ethu.
hahaz.
n de toot toot weihang.
mi n joyce decided to give them to emmeline.
that will be fun.
hmm.
how i wish we could be like our seniors in the past.
ROD in hotels, band camp, BBQ.
so fun.








haiz.
most of my frens are in woodwind.
and im in the brass.
sumtimes i tend to hav dilemma.
the feeling is like im in the middle of a maze.
there's two routes for mi to turn to.
but im confused to go to the left or the right.
wen i started to pray for a middle route.
it doesnt seems to appear.
im juz stuck in the middle of the maze.
duno where to head to.




i tried to control my actions.
and tried not to go against my frens.
of cuz i wun blame them.
but it seems to failed each time,
wen i wan to do the things i wan.
m i being selfish or wad?
perheps.
i hate to hate others.
those gangs n grps,
they are driving mi real craze.
but wad shld i do.
god gives mi the strength n courage to not to hate.
i shldnt deceive god and exp myself.
its a sin.


*mi, myself n i. accept it or not.i dun care*
shld i do this?
i dun wan.
it will hurt my frens.

*my frens should accept hu m i but not wat they wan mi to be*
it seems so selfish.

*frens are not foes. god give us frens to be wif. we shld cherish wat god has planned for us*
i think i will stick to this.
everyone is my fren.
i shld cherish wad god has planned for mi.







"Relationships of all kinds should be at the top of your priority list today. Try to be aware of the effect that you have upon others and the effect that they have upon you. And just realize that many of the negative thoughts that limit you may not be relevant. So don’t be afraid to go after what you want right now."
-god indeed answer my prayer.
indeed i got negative thoughts on wad ppl will say wen i go too close to the trumpet section.
but god said that my thoughts may not be relevant.
i must not be afraid to go after wad i wan to do.
i also must put myself in others shoes.
i cant blame them.
thank god.
my prayer is answered.