i lost hope in band. reali had enoff. dun ask y. im reali very piss off. i already written a letter. is the matter of time now. if i cant take it anymore longer. i will pass the letter to ms johnson. but then, tat will be after SYF. i wun be irresponsible. hmm. i let god decide.
it takes two hands to clap. for us in a band. its not onli a brass band. nor its not onli woodwinds. the two hands is juz like woodwind n the brass. we need both of them to produce a sound. u cant clap wif one hand rite? same applies to band. we cant onli depend on woodwind, we need brass also.
its important for us to stay unite. we must have the passion to play n to motivate others to be enthu for band. but then it seems that our band dun have this kind of attitude.
all i see is all the hate dis hate that attitude, n wad bu shuang here n there. n it seems to be getting worse. SYF is cuming. 24 more days. y cant we juz 4get abot these childish ways of thinking n concentrate on our playing?
dis is not difficult. iszit it?
y must we make things look as if its so complicated? y cant we have the learn to 4give n 4get attitude? y must woodwind hate brass or the other way round? so childish lor. ok. i abmit that i hate a certain of ppl in band. but then i dun show it tat i hate rite? hate hate lor. its normal mah to hate ppl. but dun show lor. mus learn to tolerate things.
haiz. if band continues like tat, i duno how to survive. no body noes how i feel.
most of my closet buddy were in woodwind. or i think is like im the onli brass lor. den wen they sux the brass or wad, hey, u r saying mi also lor. u ppl must think its nth. but then to mi although i dun reali mind tat much, it makes mi very "hen nan zhuo ren". im a brass player. hating brass is like hating myself. hey. i luv myself hor! no one will understand my feelings.



2dae exchange. hmm. at least its more interesting then ytd de. got 2 instructers frm overseas. one ish japan den the other one not sure. hmm. we did not play well today. social matters can affect playing n the mood of music. we play darm loud. need to tone dwn alittle. kind of hapi today. coz nadia ma. hahaz. 2 of us again went so crazi. waaa!! hahaz. miss her xia. hahaz. shld have follow her back to fuchun.
ms johnson sae today ish our last exchange lehx. till syf lor. if got ppl invite she will decline. we need to improve alot of things xia. 24 more days. so stress up. will we get a silver dis time? or back to bronze? or we lucky we get gold? hmm. social matters n personal matters n the mood of playing matters the whole compeition.
the ball is in our hands. its the matter of how we do it. in the end, the decision is still in our hands.