this is the first time i cried in class today...my heart is totally broken...i try myself to smile...but is very difficult....very difficult...then...my frens try to cheer mi up...yet is like the blow is too big 4 mi to accept...den is like my tears juz keep on flowing...and im totally lost confidient in myself...i was like holding my hp n feel like sms to my seniors n sae sorri coz is like at that point of time i juz totally feel so useless n toopit...and i juz wana give up my interests n concentrate on my studies....but later on i feel that im so selfish...i onli think of myself n i dun care how they feel if i juz quit band...i cannot totally let my failure overcome my life rite...no matter wat i juz have to keep my life going... i cannot juz becoz of one failure i try to commit sucide rite....(i almost did it)... this is not the end of the world rite...haiz...it was like for that moment very hard to accept the fact lorz...haiz...*sob**sob*...feel like crying again...*sniff*...
tml teacher's day celebration.....haiz...duno have to be happy....okok.....think of sumthing good...ok...getting award this saturday.....must smile....smile....smile......CA3 Art get 144/160....is good already.....smile!!! TANYINGYIN U BETA SMILE!!!DUN GIVE MI TAT BLOODY FACE!!!!!....*sob*....i reali wana smile.....but is reali very difficult...i duno wat m i gona do...tml going to see my pri school teacher.....have to smile....smile....then after tat going out wif my frens....so i have to smile...cannot becoz of mi make them sad too!!! TANYINGYIN U BETA SMILE!!!!.....*sob*...haiz...ok....i think enough abot this b4 i reali breakdown....
[...sori eleanor 4 not calling u...]
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