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Saturday, July 3

Saturday....3 June 2004......Time, 9:15pm.....

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I cant take it anymore le lor….my computer….i hate it xia…. Always stopping mi haf way wen im doing sum important stuffs….2dae mi vry vry pec…….i cant stand it le lorz…….i reali gona explode!!!!....ahhh!!!!
2dae in band…..mi already vry angry n frustrated le lorz……mi reali wana cry in front of everywan…..but no matter wat…I hav to hold back my tears n let it go….. wen I got home…..i went straight to my room n tears started fallin……later my mum came back home frm nowhere n she tell mi that my uncle say my computer kana 2 2pit viruses….wa kau!!!!!!!......mi vry frustrated lorz…why is this happening to mi….den my mum aski mi to save the files in a hard disk 1st…,k la…..i do lorz……den haf way…I went online……. Later waimin came online n I send her ‘fate of the gods’->a song la…….den haf way through my computer auto shut down n I throw my pillow tat I was holding on the ground n I was like kicking it……im vry pec lorz…..i hold back my tears….n I told my mum wat happen n she give mi a deaf ear….wa lau…..wat kind of attitude is dis…..den I repeat my words again n she give mi a ‘dun care….its ur problem not my problem rite’ look!!!!......wa lau….i cant stand it…..k fine…..i bear wif it….
I ran out of disks…..n im figuring how to save sum bigger files…..while solving I ask my mum to help mi….buy sum more disks to save……AGAIN SHE IGNORE MI!!!......den she was like barking….’go n buy urself la……I wan to go out le la’……like tat lorz….how I noe she’s going out……den she like tat sae to mi……walau….im vry piss off…frustrated le lorz….why is she still like tat…..cant she spare a thought 4 mi…..all she did was to think about herself! Why is she so selfish…..why!!!!WHY!!!!...... cant take dis anymore…..i went to bath…n cry in dere….hu will bother…..no one……I was comforting myself in dere…..tellin myself to look on the brighter side of life…..den later I feel much better yet confused upon sumthings….
Nowadays…my mum is getting vry unreasonable n selfish…..why???.....haiz…
Sumtimes…….wen I need sum1……dere will be none…..n den I will be left alone….in the trap….always…….i duno how ya sae but…..is like…..everything is yet so unfair to mi……wen im not in the good mood…I will try myself to control my emotions….. but….why…..dere will n b sumwan…..making mi to cry again n again…….making mi feel so bad…..so bad…..why……I dun wan myself to be appearing sad or angry in front of my frens…..n people around mi……coz….i dun wan them to worry…….so I will try my vry best to control my emotions upon everything…..but….why in the end I always fail……fail……fail…….maybe….im easily hurt……
Wat had happened todae is reali vry hurting….n I will wana 4get it lorz……I dun wan to end up crying……I juz have to control…..n control……blog…..help mi……
Hmm…..let mi write sumthing tat is good here…hmm….b4 band 2dae….i went out wif Judith……go take neoprints…..den later songying came n join us too…..we got lots of great fun snapping….n we reali got lotsa lotsa fun!!!.......
Saturday....3 June 2004......Time, 9:15pm.....

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