Wednesday, July 28

my emotions.....my feelings....my mood....is not going so smoothly these few days.....is like going up n down......haiz.....im reali very sad.....disappointed.....hu noes....im juz feeling vry uncomfortable inside my heart....keep on crying....almost every day.....every nite..... juz becoz.....of sum things.......
juz now as im practising my horn which i bring back home today.......after playing a few songs......tears juz begin to flow from my eyes.......i juz duno why......i juz feel depressed all of a sudden and images of unpleasant images came flashing through my mind.....dragging my attention......i stop 4 a while.......and drop into silent......i duno wat im thinking......but.....i reali wana cry everything out......but i cant......i dun cry in front of my family.....coz they duno wat i feel.........dey dun even give a damn.....i juz have to wait 4 the time to reach mid-nite.....b4 i broke into tears......hu cares.....
Sumtimes......i ask myself......y galz have to suffer more then guys.......why galz r always the unlucky ones.......y........y i have to cum to this whole world......to suffer all those unpleasant sorrows........and to suffer alone.......left in the darkness.....and others dun even wan 2 care...... at a point of time.....i reali need sum1 to be by my side......to guide mi......to teach mi....to tok to mi......but always.....no 1 wan to care.......one word they always say is tat......'aiya....dun think too much la......relax......smile.....'.....but......do they reali noe the way u feel.......do they noe???......haiz....life is juz so bad......so bad......
2dae.......i slept late todae.......reach school at 7.20am....haiz....almost kana by the prefects...... after school.....went to get a quick bite at cheers....den went to the band room to get my horn.......ran home after maths remedial......vry tiring....have to hug and carry my horn.......phew!.....pia 4 maths tution....till 6.30pm den im finally free from everything.......STRESS!!!....
i duno how to face tml........everything is going so bad......unpleasant......haiz......i duno where my DNT file is......duno where iszit.....haiz..................c how tml lorz....
i dun have the mood to write......maybe 4 the next few days im not cuming to write any entries.......i juz have to c how things works......
12 more days n im going to 14......how excited.......yaya.....im not excited at all.......=(
Wednesday.......28 July 2004........10:36pm.......



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