im very sad yesterdae....i juz cant sleep well.....i have been thinking alot....very sad... i almost cried in band yesterday...but i tried myself to hold back my tears....most of you may not believe it rite....i may seems lying rite......the answer is no.....im speaking the truth....i noe yesterday in band i keep on laughing n laughing.....as if i have gone crazy like tat.....but deep in my heart....im crying.....i juz wana keep my laughter on so mi....myself....will not affect the ones around mi....haiz.....wat point saying.....no1 will cares rite.....
Sumtimes......juz a glance at ***will reali sent tears flowing in my heart....im reali heart-broken......depressed.....but hu noes.....i reali wana have a break.....b4 i break down.... maybe going sumwhere 4 a month......mabe that idea is good......or apply a one month break frm ****....so i wun be sad.....crying......im reali heartbroken.....vry heartbroken.....wateva....
i think.....in a week's time.....a week.......i will reali break down.....n reali....i will.....may i breakdown....n never wakes.......sent mi to heaven....n may my sorrows.....disappear...
hahaz....my fren.....pri.sch pal.....say tat i often bring happiness to my frens around mi.....but 4 my self......i intend to make myself sad.....sorrow....den she told mi she rather c mi smile.....den to c mi in pain.....thankiew....
hmm....2dae is my cousin's birthday!!!...hahaz....hmm......hopes she enjoy her day......
im now chatting wif a guy ba....online.....who i reali dun reali noe him well.....sum1 intro wan.....hmm......hopes tat he will cheer mi up....
25 July 2004......Sunday......