i almost broke down this morning in the rain....tears ran down my eyes.....n i feel like fainting.....maybe i never eat this morning.....no appettite...
this morning......i went Swee Lee.....help grace to send her section the clarinet for repair...hmm.....i went alone.....raining.....yaya.....i walk in the rain....hoping that the rain will wash away my tears.....haiz....life indeed sux......
Band sux too.....siao lorz......drill sux......very unhappy.....went to see ms johnson to give her the Swee Lee invoice....n people thought i wana quit band.....hmm......den...erm....i skip drill later....coz ms johnson wan mi to write a reflection on how i feel being born on national day.....i cried as i write.....i feel so sad.....wen i see her......i cant control.....4 that moment.....no 1 around....so i cry......after writing.....went to find ms johnson at the shaw hall.....cant find her....yet i saw the band doing drill n mr ng......he's not in the good mood.....later....i went back to the staff room to look 4 ms johnson again.....den give her the reflection and her stuffs....
we set up our instruments in the canteen.....n play march together.....all of a sudden.....i feel like crying again.......tears almost fall......i control myself again.....
we got the NDP rehearsal today.....quite ok la.....i have to go n present my reflection.....cery nervous lorz......my heart almost jump out.....haiz....den mr lian keep asking mi to slow down.....haiz.....
after band.....i immediately got gastric pain....*ouch*....i never ate anything since morning.....onli sweets......u c.....ya ci rite....haiz.....till 4 plus 5.....i never eat anything....this is not the 1st time le.....haiz....
31 July 2004....Saturday.....11:45pm.......