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Thursday, July 22

Haiz…..*yawn*……cant slp….is already 1:34am in the morning le im still here…..haiz….my family members all sleep le….left mi onli…..i juz cant slp….coz…..im troubled…..sorrows grew deep down in my heart….followed by confusion…..im vry lost….vry lost….alot of things have been happening to mi….i juz duno how to solve them….it’s too much….too much….sumtimes…….i reali wana go n commit suicide…..but after much thinking…..i dun bear to leave this world so soon…..so soon….. I wan to carry on living…..i still got many things to do….n wan to do…..i have been slping vry late for sum days le…..coz I noe is vry unhealthy to carry your worries to bed….slping late…..wake up early…..haiz….
I duno wat im doing…….but…..i noe I have been lying to myself……always…..why im doing it……becoz…..i reali wan 2 4get sumthings……sumthings is reali…..too much…..too much….unbearable…..torturing…..i reali wan to 4get…..but I juz cant make myself do it….wat im I gona do??....can anywan juz tell mi…..
I think I will stop writing abot this…..i think I will juz sae sumthing else….
Hmm….today my class…..faith 2-4….faith 3-4….hope 3-2 n hope 3-3 went 4 an outing organized by Mr Chow……we went to the Singapore Conference Hall……4 the SYF Art Exhibition ‘Wings To Soar’……it’s vry the interesting…..im impressed by sum of the works….. Schools like Mayflower…..Kranji….Raffles Int…….ACS(independent)…..Chung Cheng High (Main)….n sum other schools were involved……even some JCs and sum special Schools were involved too!!!......sum of their art…..they used recycled materials to make themàthis is where I find the art interesting….. My class vry the pro…..we completed our given worksheets and viewing at within 45 mins….yet the others took a long time to finish….hahaz…..Mr Chow took sum pictures of sum of the art….,y class went to the so-called meeting point and wait lorz….i bought my camera go too…..hehez….mi waimin and siew hua……went crasy abot taking photos……till we even went to the toilet and take….hehez….lucky no people….phew!.....after all that…..haiz…still got 45 mins left…..so back to the meeting place and we start playing hp camera device and keep on snapping photo….hey hey!.....the photos are in my photo album! Feel free to take a look at them!!...=p…hehex…..vry fun la…..reali enjoy a lot…..
Sleepless nitez…..my temper goes bad…..i have been flaring up at home a lot…..yet at the end….im the one crying…..i reali cant stand myself….i hate mi….i hate mi!!!!.....

*Yawn*…thankz song…..4 being the wan….always by my side….cheering mi up when im down…..i indeed lied to myself in every thing I do…..n I think im selfish to do that…..sori….now I finally noe wat to do….and I will be more open-minded next time…..i will make everyone of them my fren and to care 4 them no matter wat happens…. I will heed 4 ur advice…..reali gona thank you so much…..so much…..
*yawn*……
Thursday…..22 July 2004…..Time, 1:59am……

Time to Love. Y
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